Spelling Out Life... with Day 15

I think I salah kira for my birthday countdown. I forgot that February has 28 days. HAHAHHAHAHAHAHA..

takpa la kan... :D oh, Vivian updated my first gen Itouch! :D I have weird cool games called: Angry Birds, PvZ, bejeweled 2, Cut The Rope etc. Wanna play? Let me know yea! :D

I cant sleep well for 2 nights now. I have issues with Heiman's death. sigh.

Anyway, I had good dinner tonight. Mind blasting one. :D

Thank you Taiko and Jian for the insights. :D

I'm tired and I cant sleep.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 16

When The Lord gave

I tried to close one eyes

Wishing it's not true

Over and over the visions and dreams repeated themselves

yet I still wish it's not true

When the truth sank in,

I knew well it was real and happening

I could only mourn like the rest

Rest in Peace,

Heiman.

I only met you a couple of times but I know well you are a fighter. You always are. Just as your mum...

Spelling Out Life... with Day 17

We're not here to live comfortably, we are here to do something about this country. When all races start looking at themselves as Malaysians, instead of stereotyping everybody as this race or that, I believe that we'll achieve more than just Vision 2020.

Live as one, think as one, be like one.

I'm Joy Gracia Liso, I'm not a Kelabit and I'm a Malaysian.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 18

God,

I pray that you grant me a nice birthday. Something simple but memorable celebration with my loved ones: family and friends is more than I could possibly ask for. Somehow I'm craving SS2 Murni's Spaghettis meatball, mango juice, Jian's mashed potatoes, and Nando's chilis, with TV at the side. Hahahahahah..

K la, just a simple desire, that's all. :)

Believing in that. I shall! :D

A girl can only dream. :D

Spelling Out Life... with Day 19 - 1

Why do I have the Lord Jesus Christ in my life? Let's hear out my story with Him alongside me! It's nothing big but it has been abundant...

Just a brief introduction, I come from a Christian family, go to church since baby yet I was empty, direction-less, lost and dead. I can be happy but when the sun sets, I have nothing to look forward to, except for the excitement I get in schools, from friends etc. I always find my journey ahead a little blurry, I don't know what I can do with my life. I am the girl with a very short span of contentment. I get bored easily. I'm indecisive, compulsive and all the -sive adjectives that one could possibly as for. Earlier in 2005, I lied on bed, telling God almost everyday. "God, if You are real, please change my life around. I'm bored! Is there more to life than this? Please make Yourself real to me." :D It was then end of 2005 when everything started to go haywire! In 2006, I can possibly tell you I was a wreck. My family started to torn apart from one another although my social life started to build up (in a good manner ofcoz: President/vice president/prefects etc). My family nearly got into a divorce, everybody hated everybody, I was being interrogated for the whole thing! But of course, I was the first to know yet I said nothing in order to not worsen things! I nearly committed suicide, I hurt myself, I became more attention-seeking person than ever, I had no one to speak to about it. It just suck to be in between everybody and tried to laugh it off as the dawn breaks. "God, why do you make me suffer everyday? You said You have better plans for me, why am I going through this? You are nothing. I am nothing." Yet, day by day, I complained to Him alone... I just went back to my house (not home), I started to talk to Him! I didn't care if He was hurt or happy, I just tell Him what I was going through! More like "whatever la. You listen. Listen good" kinda mode. hahahahha.. You know what made me grew closer to my Lord? His words. As much as I keep on complaining about my stupid dead life, I still remember almost every night, I would recite a whole paragraph and debate with myself or just savouring everything that He said on my bed. His words of comfort, joy and grace keep on filling in my life. He was faithful to all the prophets in the Bible. He was still faithful from the way He approached me through my friends and church members. I knew right then, I had Him in my heart... I knew right then, I have something to live for and I'm alive! I invited Him into my heart and received Him as my personal Lord and Saviour. Towards the end of 2006, I grew closer to God though my family was still breaking up at that time. :) God provided me the Lim family for replacing my need of family love, God provided me awesome experiences in school and I was living for Him! 2007 wasn't any better, things got worser! Hahahaha. But I had this thought that keep me sane "God is faithful. If He is faithful like He claims Himself to be, He'll make me go through this safely. I just need more patience to see this through..." and it did come to pass. My family got back together slowly in His grace and love in 2008.. :) I couldn't believe that it would be that soon! Usually people wanting to get divorce, it will happen wan, but Haha! after 2 years, things started to patch up! :D So yea. Everyday until today, I look forward to look on my ceiling after I wake up, to say "Good morning God!" coz He told me "My mercies are new every morning." God has been carrying me through well, safe and abundantly. I don't hope for anything else but to have an abundant life through Him who made me His child. He made me who I am today. "Joy, you are not a mistake so go and live up to the calling I have placed in you." and yes, I shall live up, live with joy, grace and full of His love for me! I know I'm different because He lives in me. When others say I'm different when they look at me, I know, that is His works in my life that make me one! HAHAHAH.. I'm not going to boast that this whole thing is me, coz it's not! Now, I can proudly say I know my calling, my direction in life, I know I'm living everyday, I know His voice and I don't feel dead anymore! How great is the God I'm serving! He IS still faithful! oh, you can read about his faithfulness in my life under the tag "faith" or "God" and yes, that is just the tiny side of His every BIG BIG BIG love me. :)

That's about my story with my DADDY GOD. He's a great dad and I couldn't imagine myself to not live without the FATHER that makes me alive...

Isaiah 9:6-7:

For to us a child is born,

to us a son is given,

and the government will be on his shoulders.

And he will be called

Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,

Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

⁷ Of the greatness of his government and peace

there will be no end.

Amen to all the great things and great understanding that are to come.

rev 3:20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.

Have you open up your heart to Him yet? You can have the same lively-ness I have, if you are willing to open up to Him. :) He never fails. He conquered death, He loves you and I, and what more can you possibly ask for? :) He's an awesome daddy! HUGS dad! :)

xoxo,

Joy - The happiness He placed in me.

Gracia (Spanish: Grace/thanksgiving) - Full of thanksgiving and grace that I'm having.

Liso (Spanish: Smooth/straight) -The straight truth that I'm holding on.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 19

Kakak cafe :Di Sarawak banyak Muslim tak?

Me: Tak lah. Kristen lebih banyak.

KC: mana ada. Muslim. Kamu Kristen ya?

Me: Ya.. :)

KC: Bila mau masuk Islam? Kan baik kahwin Islam aja.

Me: Hahaha.. Tak apa lah ya. Pacar Kristen lagi bagus. *ehem* haahhaahahaahahaha...

Not being such a religionista, but I find that so many people question me that! "Joy, when are you becoming one of us?" or "When are you going into Islam?" or "Marry one of us la." Honestly, I thank you for your deep concern for my soul but I shall say I serve a God that lives/ ALIVE,

"Christ died for our sins...He was buried...He was raised on the third day, according to the Scriptures...He appeared to Peter, then to the twelve. After that He appeared to to more than 500..." (1 Corinthians 15:3-6)

He makes me feel alive every morning, He just makes me alive!

I came that they may have life and have it abundantly. (John 10:10)

It is of the LORD's mercies that we are not consumed, because his compassions fail not.They are new every morning: great is thy faithfulness. (Lamentation 3:22-23)

How awesome is my God that dies for my sins, YOUR sins, and WE can have ever loving salvation! He IS the way like He claims Himself to be,

Jesus answered, "I am the way and the truth and the life. No one comes to the Father except through me. (John 14:6)

so why are some people still feel in a sense that they still need to find or ask for a way to reach God? For years and years wanting to find a way, when THE WAY aka Jesus Christ is already existed 2 thousand years ago! So yea. This is my faith and I love my Lord Jesus Christ... Just for all to know, I know my God through His words, I understand His grace for all of us, I accept the fact that I'm weak in so many things, yet I still am learning His ways for my life, I still know His grace is sufficient enough for me, I still know what is His plans for me.

For I know the plans I have for you, declares the LORD, plans for welfare and not for evil,to give you a future and a hope. (Jeremiah 29:11)

I'm going to live up my faith just as He wants me to be

Now then we are ambassadors for Christ, as though God did beseech you by us: we pray you in Christ's stead, be you reconciled to God. ( 2 Cor 5:20)

and I shall pass whatever offers that won't surpass the standard of my Lord Jesus Christ.

"Christ died for our sins...He was buried...He was raised on the third day, according to the Scriptures...He appeared to Peter, then to the twelve. After that He appeared to to more than 500..." (1 Corinthians 15:3-6)

So yea...

XOXO.

:)

Be blessed

Spelling Out Life... with Day 20

I need a mentor to train me badly this year. Lord, please grant me one. I'd learn fast with Your ways, please teach me Lord... :)

Spelling Out Life... with Baby Dumping Issues

For with much wisdom comes much sorrow;
the more knowledge, the more grief.

Ecclesiastes 1:18

you know kan... (no you dono) The more I get myself involved in this assignment which my junior choose earlier on, the more attached I get to this issue! Crying over the misdeeds of the parents of the babies, un-solvable issues, daily increasing issues and the distorted foundation of a family, is something I never came across before, and yet I did.

God broke my heart when I got myself emotionally attached to something that breaks His. He showed an evil side of human nature and it is written clearly in black and white, in photos and in the heart of mine... :(

Please please pray along with me that His Holy Spirit will work in everybody to curb this issues... :)

In Jesus name, there will be lesser cases in the days to come, amen.

yup, the more you know, the more grief you have...

:)

Spelling Out Life... with Election!

Let us vote only to those deserving ones! NOT because they are from Aspirasi OR Gabungan Mahasiswa(GM)! :)

I believe in the concept of, as long as you have a heart for the students which can be seen through the manifesto, you are worth voted for.

Ladies and gents, be wise and be just k! Hugs!

Spelling Out Life... with Day 21 - 1

No one remembers the former generations,
and even those yet to come
will not be remembered
by those who follow them.

Ecclesiastes 1:11

a leader is to have a heart that puts God's name before his own. :) Remember remember...

Spelling Out Life... with Day 21

I played galah panjang today! :D

*credits to Biro IPK of KTHO*

Guess I played with who?? :D With form 3 girls from SMK Jalan Reko! :D I needed 4 girls to join me to play this game, hence, I just walked around, looking at this group of girls, I asked them! :D Turns out, not only they taught me how to play the game, they became my friends! :) I was blessed by the Lord above for granting me the companies I needed for the day... For some reason, I knew God wanted my own college juniors to ignore my msgs so that I am able to bless these girls with whatever that I have. :) I invited them to join me for Kolam Design competition too! I laughed the whole time coz I sucked in designing the whole thing! :DDDD Dei, I need time to design okaaayyyy.. So yea. We lost but then again, I liked our bonding time! :)

Before I end this, let me be glad that God blesses me with a steamboat voucher worth RM21! :D

Desire for today:

I want green tea cheese cake.

I pray that the election tomorrow goes well... :)

Thank You Lord for the tiring, annoying yet blessed day!

Spelling Out Life... with Day 22 - 1

I'm covering a baby dumping issue for an assignment right now.

I'm torn emotionally. I'm attached to this issue more than I ever imagine, when I initially started it. God, why do people have the guts to throw away the life that they themselves make? Why can't they choose to live with the joy and the life that can turn their life around? It hurts me, God. It hurts me, oh Lord. Finding the perfect solutions for all these cases. I can't, Lord. I have limitations. I have limitations. I try to cover certain aspects yet there are 50/50 chances of people will take things for granted or just repent from doing it. I'm out of ideas Lord. I really am. God, the answer for all these solutions is knowing You as their Personal Lord and Saviour. Yet, i'm being stupid now that I have to make knowing You as a practical action to help the country.

Why did I agree to my classmates when they propose this idea to me?????????????????????!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Desire for the day:

I wanna change topic. I'm broken to get into deep into this issue. This is wrong....

Spelling Out Life... with Day 22

War is real.

I've seen it my own eyes.

When will they see Love?

Lord, please have Your way in them.

No more hatred, no more selfishness... Please Lord, have Your way shown in them through Your Son Lord Jesus Christ..

Desire for the day:

I pray that parents will stop, yes, STOP polluting children's mind with fear and hatred towards others. I pray that parents will show wisdom and love, that way, I believe that this world could be a place to live in... I pray that Lord God will protect all the children in the world from fear and hatred.. I pray the living water from Him will flow in their heart instead. In Jesus name, amen.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 23

I hosted the Palestinians during the opening ceremony of FESSAT 2011 today.

They are nice warm people actually. :) I had fun getting to know this lady, Amal. :) She has 2 kids and her husband is taking her PhD here in UKM.

As the hours passes by... I could only ask from God one thing for today.. I pray that parents nowadays will instill love and peace in the heart of their children. :)

Desire for the day:

I pray that every families in the world will dwell in their home with joy, peace and love. I pray that the parents will have tons of wisdom to bring up their children in the correct way... I pray that peace and joy dwells in the families that fear of people or war-torn countries. I pray that Your protection cover these people, Oh Lord. I pray for blessings and abundant grace be surrounding these people... I pray that these families will move pass ignorance, prejudice, racism and starting growing into bringing one another up to bless others.

Sigh.

Lord, I feel the pain of Your heart.

Give me the strength and support to bless others in a way that is pleasing to You.

Blessings!

Joy :D

Spelling Out Life... with Day 24

The Lord wants me to pray the nation that grows. His heart is for these people... and truthfully, I wish I don't have to feel the hurt He felt anymore...Yet, somehow, the more I get to know Him through my daily activities, the more pain I felt as I pray for this nation.

God,

I claim that Your truth, Your light, Your way be shining in their eyes, ears and hearts. I pray that they have this hunger even more to ever seek the truth, which is only through You, oh Lord Jesus Christ. I know oh Lord, as much peace, good or kindness that the world offers them, everything will cease and be useless but Your blood that shed for our sins and cleanses us and gives us life. What good is to have everything nice to feel now when even right now salvation from the Lord Jesus Christ is not in our lives?

Desire for the day:

Speak oh Lord, to this nation. Open up our heart, ears and eyes... break our pride. Let us move from prejudism, racism to a nation that fear nothing but You.

Ps: I taught today! wuhoo! I no longer have to anticipate the crazy teaching lessons or heart literature presentation! :D

Shine oh People of our Daddy God!

Wuhoo! :D

Spelling Out Life... with Day 25

The beginning of my college's festival the 10th, is today! :D

Honestly, being a council that oversees the technical department is not my strength. LOL. Number 1, the head did his job by calling the sound system person and checked with the canopies and lightings. So yea, I just say, "good job". Hhahahahahahaha... Lame, I know but what can I do when he has tons of members around him? Encouragement. XD

Preparing for the lesson for tomorrow. I have a chance of being the first 3 chosen students to teach in class tomorrow, out of 20. Haha. I'm still out of idea. Praying that the Lord will carry me through tomorrow!

Had a prayer with a friend of mine through Skype as well... Prayed for Malaysia as a whole. I've been having the stir in my heart and so does my friend. :)

Desire for today:

I pray that the government will have the citizen's best interest at heart... I pray the country councils will stop being childish in fighting for little things like you-condemn-me-i-do-the-same-to-you-too and instead, they would work on the big issues such as teenage pregnancy issues, baby dumping issues, inflation rate is getting higher, work scope for graduates is lower etc.. I pray that Jesus will bring up righteous leaders to lead this nation, where ever they are, I pray that the Lord will mold them, shape them righteously and give them a heart that wants to serve Him through the government ministries.

Have a blessed week! :)

Love always.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 26

I had a dream, while I nap.

I was in a class, with 3 other friends and surprisingly that class' setting was different than how I usually see. There were 2 monitor screens and there's a remote attached to them in the class. Yet the lecturer was lecturing us through those screens. Rather unusual no?

Somehow there was a long break in between, my Spanish friend from next door came over and asked us to help her cook Magie. The rest of my friends didn't want to help for they wanted to play with some games. LOL. Therefore I went over to my lecturer's place, the same person just now, and start to cook Magie as the cooker is just next to him, I put in more hotdogs in her soup, so that I can have some hotdogs for myself.

The class grew quiet, and the lecturer stood next to me while I was standing quietly, thinking bout my future, in front of the pot, saying to me, with love and this fatherly tone, "Joy, you have a special gift for education. You have a heart of learning. When others come and do other things in the class, you are eager to learn as much you always join them. I can see you get agitated through the glass window when they play those games. You wanted to do something else. You should come back and learn more, not as to add in better result, but there's so much more than that. You will need them in the future. Education and you will not be separated. You will always have a soft spot for it. You are very different, Joy. Always remember that."

All I could answer was "HAHAHAHAH.. thank you sir! So can I get an A for this class? Oh ya sir, how many kids do you have anyway? (after looking at his ring on the left 4th finger)"

LOL!!!

I went out in the patio, (I tell you, this school or institute rocks!!!), I saw our lady headmaster and sat beside her on the bench. She looked at my lecturer as he went off in a car, then she looked at me with this warning face! Weird, right? "Joy, don't ever listen to that man. Whatever he said to you, if he ever told you anything, is all lies. Look at him. He will never be a good teacher. Old car some more. We have a reputation..." and I woke up.

I'm amazed how God placed 2 different characters into my dreams. I have no idea on what is happening but I know well God is speaking. I know those words are His, from the lecturer. I know it.

Desire for the day:

Dear Lord, I pray that the education ministry in Malaysia has a deep anguish for the children of the Land. I pray against one-sided attitude, prejudice and racism in the ministry. I pray that this ministry will grow more of Your chosen people as day passes by.

Have a great day people! :)

Love be with you.

Joy too.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 27

Valentine's Day.

Today, I find it a little awkward to have my friends being a little less chatty when it comes to Valentine's Day.. Lol. They are against it so I shall not trigger anymore awkwardness in our lives. So I shall say, have a blessed day instead!

Today, I helped around PERKEB to pass out gifts to UKM students. :D Pretty tough initially when people thought that you are under ASPIRASI/random clubs/outsiders giving harm to them. LOL. But I had fun! :D

I had headache now though... 1, stupid monkeys are around. 2. Lightnings and thunder. T.T

So yea.

Desire for the day:

I pray that everyone had a great day today. I hoped we'll look back and reflect on how great is God towards you today! :) Hey, your presence in your class, workplace, home etc, is a great blessing to the people around you! :) Be glad and rejoice! :)

Jesus blesses you!

I hope you love.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 28

Sunday. 13 Feb.

Pr Daniel shared his love story in church. I was actually seeking for answers from God through the service and I knew He answered it in an adorable way, the way I knew it is God's work in my life. :)

Pr Dan spoke bout God impressed a desire/thought in his heart bout Aunty Sally and vice versa. It was God's intention for them to grow together through different tough, happy, sad, crazy times. It was really the God that I'm serving now was the one behind their love story.

I know now what is the next step. Pray and fast. :)

God works in His plans, not mine.

As time passes by, I pray that His love continues to draw each one of us together for His glory. :)

be blessed!

Joy.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 29

Valentine's Day issue is on the rise.

Overall, if any of you, my friends that trust who I am as your friend, believe me when I say Valentine's Day is not a Christian celebration. :) It's a total world tradition like Halloween. People make it such a hoo-haa that they think it's cool to celebrate love as a whole. If you want to know where did it come from, Google! :) It's rather unfair to say that it's a Christian event k? Trust me in this.

Desire for my birthday:

A heart for all people, from friends and family to have a heart to seek God as who they are... God loves you.

:)

Spelling Out Life... with Day 30

Sorry for the late reply.

Friday... Friday... I had a nice lunch! Marie, Nernny and Gita were my Perkeb Cell's (Perkeb CARES) members. :) Getting to know more awesome Christians brought delight in this thirsty for fellowship heart of mine! God knows how long since I've not been to church... 3 long tiresome weeks! Week 1 was to celebrate Dee's birthday, week 2 worshipping in FGA Penang & SIB Penang and week 3 in a freaking long bus-trip back to UKM. LOL.

I miss church.

My desire for the day:

I pray that every Christians in the world have a thirsty heart to draw themselves back to our Abba Father. :) No joy can replace the moment where you just sit and talk to our Daddy God above.. :)

Spelling Out Life... with Picky Christians

Hello there, not to shoot anyone. Mere reminder for me, you and everyone else.

"Christians are the lowest beings on earth, therefore we need God to use us for His great Kingdom."

Understand now?

Since when do we pick and choose who goes in the church, CF or even just plain CG?

Since when we are TOOOOOOOOOOOOO awesome that we choose people to hang out with.

Since when culture is the barrier for His love to dwell within?

Since when race is an issue for Him?

Since when other religion's rules are the dead end for us to propagate our faith?

Since when we are so racist?

.... since before. sigh.

What God are we serving if we start picking on who should we share the Gospel to? Didn't Jesus just die for ALL, not just us?

Sigh.

Change our hearts, Lord. Break our pride, Lord. Break our heart, Lord. These things are the reasons why we are not showing Your love for the rest to see. I'm sorry Lord, on behalf of my brothers and sisters, for being selfish, stupid, rude, racist and shallow when it comes to serving Your church and Your community. Change our hearts Lord.

All this, I pray in Jesus most Precious name,

amen.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 31

today, i thank God for the first time experience of me being an Incident Officer for my College. Hhahahahaha. Nonetheless, everybody hates fire drill. :D K la, gonna sleep now. will count my blessing from Day 31 until the day I turn 21.

Desire 1 : to eat a huge slice of my favourite Green Tea Cheese cake from Secret Recipe. :)

thank You Lord for today, in Jesus' name, amen. :)

Counting my blessings everyday. :)

Spelling Out Life... with racism

we ought to fight racism by just confronting personally on the ones making judgmental remarks on other races. You tell them what you feel about their comments, wisely that is. Don't fire the whole religion and race just cause one useless apple is rotting from within. that's all. that's how you love your neighbour. :)

nite

Spelling Out Life... with Terengganu Trip

On the 4th til 6th of February, my college councils together with the college admins and PALAPES KTHO, went to Terengganu for (a supposedly UMT-KTHO collaboration programme) Mr Karim's wedding.

Wan, being my ever faithful sidekick joined the adventure with me. We had our reasons. LOL!!! Can't publicly announce it here. HAHA.

Here are some of the crazy shots we had in Taman Tamadun Islam. Pretty cool place! If you like history and architecture, you should come and have a look! The little monuments do look like a

5yo playhouse! If you were to dump Joy and Wan in this park for photoshoot again, we'd be glad to do it again! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAH...

Then again, UMT programme was cancelled. Not that sad though because we went for TWO weddings instead! HAHA! My first Malay wedding ever! Mr Karim had pretty humble wedding I'd say. Village setting, where everybody unite to work on his wedding! I love it! :) Simple but nice. Oh yes, the 2nd wedding was rich and all that, didn't fancy my appetite though. I just went there to eat ice-cream. Oh yes, they have ice cream booth in the wedding itself! LOL. Moving on, Wan and I had the best seafood dinner at the beach side restaurants, ALL PAID BY MY COLLEGE HEAD FELO!!!! HHAHAHAHA... 1 plate of calamari was RM5! Same goes to fried prawns and fish! FRESHLY CAUGHT AND COOKED! WOOHOOHOOHOOO! hahahahaha..

Did I mention God has been so faithful to me throughout the whole trip? :) He did. He provided me good company like Wan, He gave me times to get to know my felos through dinner, He provided me free meals, He gave me good rest, He gave me new insights on certain things too.

Here is a glimpse of photoshoot we had in TTI! :D

*I shall not post some photos that will result in me being barred from the park ever again though* hahahahahahahahahahaha

hahhaahaha. That's all for now. I loved the trip! I love my first Malay wedding! oh yes, I hated the 15hours bus trip from UMT to UKM, that's the first!