Spelling Out Life... with Cinderella Dream

she walks through in a cave,

she saw two dresses and she had the instruction of wearing the blue dress,

to her surprise, she saw beautiful blue gems appearing before her! :)

she follows the blue gems trail in that cave that lead her to happiness.

when she wakes up from her nap,

she saw the possibilities of trusting the blue gems around her.

yet, when she fell asleep the second time,

she dreamt of the same cave again,

this time, the same instruction appeared, but she took the red dress.

She was hoping to see the blue gems to lead her out again,

but to her dismay, she was wrong.

the blue gems turned into burning red shiny spikes and she grew scared!

she followed it and it led her to destruction.

the angels at the end questioned her, "have I not asked you to listen? come now, wake up and learn."

She woke up startled.

and I realized I woke up too.

Spelling Out Life... with a Dream

nightmares, what do you do when you had one?

Sigh. This morning, as I was praying, I was reminded of a nightmare I once had, around end of last year, to be exact... I questioned what good will it bring to me? I got scared and cried, so what good will it possibly bring?

I dreamt about my city or was it a city not of my own, being hit by a tsunami. It was a city. Yes, tsunami. I dreamt that I was stuck in a traffic jam on a hill and I ended up coming out of the car because it's not moving. I recalled my friends were with me and we ran all the way to the top of the hill! It wasn't a great thing to experience. I really felt as if I was there. But the weird thing was, it happened twice and I ran towards a different hill. Have you seen this one particular movie where it was about this president got shot but the whole thing is witnessed from different perspectives? It was exactly alike. Somehow I saw this tsunami happening twice but at a different angle when I saw it the second time.

Sigh. Lord, Lord, help me with the dreams you have planted in me. I don't get why. I really wish You can teach me.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 26

I had a dream, while I nap.

I was in a class, with 3 other friends and surprisingly that class' setting was different than how I usually see. There were 2 monitor screens and there's a remote attached to them in the class. Yet the lecturer was lecturing us through those screens. Rather unusual no?

Somehow there was a long break in between, my Spanish friend from next door came over and asked us to help her cook Magie. The rest of my friends didn't want to help for they wanted to play with some games. LOL. Therefore I went over to my lecturer's place, the same person just now, and start to cook Magie as the cooker is just next to him, I put in more hotdogs in her soup, so that I can have some hotdogs for myself.

The class grew quiet, and the lecturer stood next to me while I was standing quietly, thinking bout my future, in front of the pot, saying to me, with love and this fatherly tone, "Joy, you have a special gift for education. You have a heart of learning. When others come and do other things in the class, you are eager to learn as much you always join them. I can see you get agitated through the glass window when they play those games. You wanted to do something else. You should come back and learn more, not as to add in better result, but there's so much more than that. You will need them in the future. Education and you will not be separated. You will always have a soft spot for it. You are very different, Joy. Always remember that."

All I could answer was "HAHAHAHAH.. thank you sir! So can I get an A for this class? Oh ya sir, how many kids do you have anyway? (after looking at his ring on the left 4th finger)"

LOL!!!

I went out in the patio, (I tell you, this school or institute rocks!!!), I saw our lady headmaster and sat beside her on the bench. She looked at my lecturer as he went off in a car, then she looked at me with this warning face! Weird, right? "Joy, don't ever listen to that man. Whatever he said to you, if he ever told you anything, is all lies. Look at him. He will never be a good teacher. Old car some more. We have a reputation..." and I woke up.

I'm amazed how God placed 2 different characters into my dreams. I have no idea on what is happening but I know well God is speaking. I know those words are His, from the lecturer. I know it.

Desire for the day:

Dear Lord, I pray that the education ministry in Malaysia has a deep anguish for the children of the Land. I pray against one-sided attitude, prejudice and racism in the ministry. I pray that this ministry will grow more of Your chosen people as day passes by.

Have a great day people! :)

Love be with you.

Joy too.

Spelling Out Life... with Resolution

Hah. Realization hits when it's time to list down my desires for this year. Let's see if it does align with Daddy above. :)

in the year 2011, I'd like to:

1. do wall climbing on my 21st, with friends and families.

2. Go Singapore before 2012.

3. Win an award or something. I don't know what would that be.

4. Finish up the whole Bible.

5. Serve in other ministries in church.

6. Have really stable finance.

7. Have more open doors for my calling.

8. Experience at least 10 new things in this year.

9. Appreciate my faraway friends more. :)

10. NOT have a boyfriend.

that's about it, I think. :)

Have faith.

toodles lovely,

xoxo

Spelling out Life... with Childish Dream

Okay, i have this crazy dream of becoming a preacher, country leader and teacher since forever. gila kan? I remember I dreamt where I stand in front of a crowd and they say "go pastor!" HAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAH.. And how i dreamt about faces of different races smiling at me, each one looking up to me. YES. THAT'S REALLY WEIRD. A girl who lives to annoy, who changes her mind most of the time, a girl who is loud and super ambitious.

but in churc today, YB Hannah said
"I knew I was called to preached when I became His child. God will fulfill the dreams He put in your heart, so keep holding on. Here I am, preaching in schools, churches, marketplaces as a politician. So just keep your calling deep inside because it will come to pass. "

OMG.
really crazy la kan, for dreaming for something big. heh.
BUT ofcoz, she said "obedience and faith are needed in the process. you just need to work with Him in order for His work to really come to pass"

then her husband, Pr Ram, prayed over the church and he said
"...... you will stand and overlook the cities and know that God place you there to make a change....."

of all the things he said, this spoke strongly in my heart. until now. hrmm.

k la. i'm rambling. die.

U SEE! a girl like me, who rambles over things, who is indecisive, APPARENTLY has this crazy dream. LOL. k la. bye. HAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHHAHA

Spelling Out Life... with Gorgeous Heels

Just so you know, I'd like this to be my wedding shoes.

HAHAAHAHAAHAHA..

If you are planning to get it for me,

It is called SANJE SILVER, by Manolo Blahnik.

Yes, It's beautiful, so get it for me? Pretty Please?

xDDDD

However, pretty things don't come for free,

it costs USD$1295

HAHAHAHAHAHAH

spelling Out Life... with Me being Country Leader

Esther 1:13-14

"Do not think that because you are in the king's house you alone of all the Jews will escape. ¹⁴ For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?"

as i spent time doing my quiet time. the desire to lead the country is in my heart again. crazy thoughts, i know. but have you ever have that desire? The desire to reduce corruptions, to have a vision from Him for the country, to encourage Love and Peace among races, to re-shape the constitution, to remove all selfish authority and to lift the country as a living sacrifice for Him... Have you? I have. I still have it. Sigh. I'm no leader but I'm willing to learn what it takes to be up there and be His living testimony.... and yea, these verses struck my heart hard when I read from verse 1 to 17. ¹⁴ For if you remain silent at this time, relief and deliverance for the Jews will arise from another place, but you and your father's family will perish. And who knows but that you have come to royal position for such a time as this?" For IF I remain quiet, content of what I have now, not chasing for SIGNIFICANT works, and unfortunately for God, He HAS to send somebody else that is from some place else, to do His work for Him. Where will that leave ME? being dead and suffered with the transgression that I am supposed to prevent earlier on... that is what I'll receive.. For I have come to Malaysia and bred here and live here for such a time like this. and that, my friends, is what I've been feeling the whole time. :)

gahhhh.... I'm blabbering now. i just feel like there's more to life than this. I know I'm made for a significant work in Him.

discover yourself in Christ who gives you great plans. :)

amen!

Spelling Out Life... with Me being a Malaysian

live like Malaysians,
I urge you.



If Malaysia is going to continue like this -
full of corruption
full of crappy rulers



What is your solution?



Most probably you will say -
1. who cares
2. let somebody else deal with it
3. I give up on these systems, just follow it lah!
4. I'm migrating as soon as possible



Christ never put you in a place where you would never grow.
He has SO much of awesome plans for you, no matter where you are.
But above all, He place you there to shine for His glory.


If your planning on whining, complaining,
GO.
wherever.
really.
GO.
nobody cares.
really.
GO.
for the country's sake.
she doesn't need you.
seriously.



this place is already a havoc,
she doesn't need people like you to make it worst.
empty can rings louder, they say.
that's what you are.


and I urge you to rise.
rise if you think she needs help.
Rise and be a leader.
Rise and DO SOMETHING.





Christ gave you a desire to see things grow and be fruitful,
that is the same desire that He place for our country.




IF you think this country needs help,
join the politics,
join the higher ministry,
be the faithful engineers,
be the honest business men,
be the inspiring teachers,
the servant-hearted doctors,
be the just jugde,
be whatever good.
just be good.
just shine in your place!
She needs you!
Not some money-minded people
nor self-centered people!


Little actions, when you add it all up, make a big difference!
REALLY!
By God's grace, when you are THE leaders,
you are able to change what is supposed to be changed.
You are able to make things right again.
You are able to reduce the corruption.
You are able to change the conventional system.
you are able to make Malaysia shines above all other countries.
you are able to make Malaysia your home.
you are able to prepare Malaysia for His homecoming again.










Don't whine.
just shut your negativity up and do your part.



live like Malaysians,
I urge you.

Spelling Out Life... with Feelings

If God were to send me anywhere to settle down,

I'd choose Baguio City, Philippine.

It looks home to me.

I dont have a clue why.

SERIOUSLY!

xD

At least I know there's Reagan Moore to be there to watch over me.

LOL.

AND NO, he is not my boyfriend. He is just a guy I met during his trip down to Melaka.

HAHAHAHAHAAHAHA.

*swiftly blowing hands*

Joy does have her charm on international men!

BAHAHAAHAHAAHAH..

Don't mind me getting crazy,

it's the hormone kicking in.

Haih.

Current emotion:

heart broken.

devastated.

*walks away*

bahahhhahahahahahah!

Spelling Out Life... With a HUGE desire

I always knew I have something in me that is DIFFERENT.
I have desires that want to change people, want to lead people and want to be with people.
Since young, all my profession choices always related to saving people and helping people.
May it be a fire fighter, police, doctor, engineer, teacher or a fashion designer!
As time passes by, I prayed.
I got what I prayed for -- A passion to change the Youth.
It is a good thing.
and it is a bad thing either. Hmm.. Weird isn't it? :)
Initially, I prayed that I'll get Education ministry as my choice of study.
I got it.
Then, I suddenly have a stir in my heart that I am bigger than this!
What is?
I'm not sure.
I went to Mission conference, I prayed again.
The same passion HITS me twice!
It is indeed a good thing.
No more a bad thing, just confusing.. Hmmm.. Any idea?
Consequently, I prayed that something will show up to me.
I got it.
I have vision that I saw people in my mind. clear picture in my head!
They are smiling at me. From different nation, tribes and many more!
These words "Ministry, Education, Ministers, Missions, Politics, Youth"
kept coming back to me, as well.
I have all these words to make my life out of 'em, yet, all doesnt connect with one another.
I have a desire to be MORE than what I am now!
I am not what I am in the future. I know I AM differnt.

I KNOW I AM GOING TO MAKE A DIFFERENCE.
I just need to build myself along the way.

Spilling out of Wonders!
xoxo