Thursday, August 25, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with being selfless

throughout the time of suffering, I realized I have to learn to give up so many things physically and emotionally. It isn't easy... part of me doesn't want to lose my marbles in the whole process, part of me want to give up, part of me just want to see God do something, part of me is holding on to the grand promises of God and part of me just doesn't want to give in my traditional rigid perception of how things SHOULD run! You've been there before, don't you. Yea, at this season of life, I think I have an issue of being selfless.

God, God, break my pride and let Your Holy Spirit mold me greatly. I am ready for the next couple of pride-breaking days, carry me through though.. Give me the courage as I fall down to my level of humility. Give me the strength to carry myself selflessly in these days.

In Jesus name,

Thursday, August 18, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with "I puasa la"

As Malaysians, one way or another, we are bound to fast over some things or occasions. We are either following own belief’s yearly fast or we just simply want to fast on over-indulgences, such as Facebook, shopping, eating snacks and so on. However, when it comes to fasting, I realized there is more than just not eating our 3 favourite meals of the day or resisting our minds from doing certain acts. Fasting, for me, challenges us to go beyond our horizon of daily routine and it is supposed to upgrade us to a whole new level of growth -- spiritually. It should, isn't it?

Fasting, as I see it, is not hoping for God above to pardon our never-ending sins, to bless our plain pathetic or to some, awesome lives or even to grant ample of favour for us. It is supposed to challenge us to grow more in Him, not restricting us over a ritual or tradition. Fasting supposedly goes beyond our understanding of our own benefits and of our own self. It is never about “what’s for dinner tonight?” or “I’d like to eat to this for dinner and breakfast” because yea, it’s not just about me, me, me and me! It is never meant to be about us and it never should be about us. Fasting, to me, should make us revolving more around God, or whoever that you may worship. Through fasting, one should have an eternal perspective of how we worship the one who creates us and of how we should dwell in His presence. Because at the end of the day, it is all about Him. Once we have grasped the wholesome idea of this, it makes fasting way easier, no?

One may think that fasting is a way to losing weight, I may not object, because it IS true! Haha. *you should try it!* Nonetheless, this is not the main point here. LOL. Again, as I am in the process of renewing my walk with God, I realized that fasting goes beyond our capabilities to serve our selfish desire but more towards the community.

I once read a scripture in Isaiah 58 verse 1 till 14 (Yesaya 58:1-14, in BM)). This scripture calls for us:

“For day after day they seek me out;

they seem eager to know my ways,

as if they were a nation that does what is right

and has not forsaken the commands of its God.

They ask me for just decisions

and seem eager for God to come near them.

‘Why have we fasted,’ they say,

‘and you have not seen it?

Why have we humbled ourselves,

and you have not noticed?’

“Yet on the day of your fasting, you do as you please

and exploit all your workers.

Your fasting ends in quarreling and strife,

and in striking each other with wicked fists.

You cannot fast as you do today

and expect your voice to be heard on high.

Is this the kind of fast I have chosen,

only a day for people to humble themselves?

Is it only for bowing one’s head like a reed

and for lying in sackcloth and ashes?

Is that what you call a fast,

a day acceptable to the LORD?

Is not this the kind of fasting I have chosen:

to loose the chains of injustice

and untie the cords of the yoke,

to set the oppressed free

and break every yoke?

Is it not to share your food with the hungry

and to provide the poor wanderer with shelter—

when you see the naked, to clothe them,

and not to turn away from your own flesh and blood?

Then your light will break forth like the dawn,

and your healing will quickly appear;

then your righteousness will go before you,

and the glory of the LORD will be your rear guard.

Then you will call, and the LORD will answer;

you will cry for help, and he will say: Here am I.

We are called to serve others as how we worship our Lord, we are called to bless others with whatever that you have sacrificed for during this fasting season, may it be giving your old (or even new!) clothes, time, attention, cash etc. We are called to be blessings to others because He has first blessed us! What good will fasting be if our relationships with one another are not showing the righteousness and the love of our Lord? Let us challenge ourselves to grow and reach out for the poor and needy out of real conviction and surely the Lord will bless our genuine heart as how you have blessed Him through those generous acts. :) I can bet you learn to expand your level of humility and your contact network all over the place too! Who knows, when you run for presidency, those hands you reached out before will stand up for you, just as how you stood up for them! Haha! :)

Dwell closer in Him through this season of get-to-know-God, and surely you will find joy in Him, just as how it is mentioned in the Scripture. On top of that, be blessed as how you have bless others.

Day 18 of Ramadhan and the joy of the Lord should still be with you! hihihi.

Friday, August 5, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with Passions

"You will work among the majority"

*flashes of various faces*

"You will have to hold on to Me even more but NEVER EVER doubt that I'll leave."

"You will serve these group of people in your life."

"Your walk with him is not going to be easy but you have to trust Me."

"Everything will be beautiful in My timing. Just believe"

"You will be as one of the top of the world but you will serve them as how I served you."

"You are called for a greater call but always know that I am always with you."

"It is certainly easier to walk with the crowd than to go against it. Just hold close to Me and you will grow."

"Many doesn't see the burden in your heart but there are people out there with the same burden as you, thinking over the same thing. It's just a matter of time that you'll work together. Just have faith."

"just believe and you'll be fine. just believe."

"If you ever stop praying for these people, the rocks will cry out and what's your purpose of being here at the first place?"

"stop going on your own strength. Just let go and believe that I'll bring everything together in time."

"I need you to go through all these in order for you to learn on your own. But it means you well."

If I ever stop discerning on His words in my life, I'd rather die than to live another thousand years of never knowing Him again.

Lord, great is thy faithfulness in my life. thank You! :)

Spelling Out Life... with Thanksgiving #2

Hey there readers, it has been a while, don't you think so? :) I kind of miss the whole drama that I always put in my writings (or so they seem), but yea, things have been busy the whole semester break and it is finally coming to an end yo! BOO! ;P

If there are words to describe of His faithfulness, it'll be certainly be the song "Fire Fall Down" by Hillsong United.

"These hands are yours
Teach them to serve
As you please and I'll reach out
Desperate to see all the greatness of God
May my soul rest assured in you"

You've changed it all
You broke down the wall
When I spoke and confessed
In you I am blessed
Now I walk in the light
In victorious sight of you

I guess I've been struggling so much more with my own character until the point where He just HAS to break my pride in order for me to listen to Him! As I spend time with Him everyday for the past couple of weeks, it has been both tough and interesting I may add... Revealing of another side of me until I can't seem to ignore and I just HAVE to change for the better of myself. It'll be shallow and stupid of me when I ignore His gentle nudge, when I could feel extremely bitter towards mere mortals that nudge me. LOL.

To He who has died and lives, He is the best thing that ever happened to me. Not only He is the life, He is the ever faithful pillar that loves me and I can't describe what life could have been if He's not in it.

Thank You Abba Father, my friend, my saviour, my Lord, my pillar, my foundation and my love, Lord Jesus Christ.