tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-42563729105843625002024-03-19T13:02:38.919+08:00Scrumpcious Life ...♥Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.comBlogger367125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-61775102601390805072016-12-29T19:38:00.002+08:002016-12-29T19:38:46.596+08:00Spelling Out Life... with MarriageHey guys,<br />
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I have reached the age where wedding invitation comes. It is a wonderful rejoicing acts of two people coming together and of course, being invited is a great joy to receive as well. So this is an entry about marriage for people who are young, stupid, in love and high in hormones, on top of being a graduate and just starting a job.<br />
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I will share more about my journey as a wife in a 2 year marriage journey, yes? Hope you can catch some insights or find hope in my journey! Whatever it is, let LOVE be so evident in you that you may grow in your future marriage!<br />
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Let's get started:<br />
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Marrying in a Young Age<br />
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It is hard as hell. Especially when we are entitled, spoilt, independent and egoistic creature. Yes, dating is great, but living with someone equally as what is mentioned earlier on, you guys are going to be explosive! There are many times I wish I can give up and walk away, secretly wishing someone out there would take me away. Many times, we quarrel over expectations, unmet needs and money. Trust me, it is not a flowery as what the social media deems to be. It is not always perfectly happy ever after, it is not always all love, spooning, cook for the spouse kind. It is not. at all.<br />
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I guess being young and stupid and get married... really will teach you how to love like Jesus do. Love is patient, the bible says. Why do you think it is the very first value of what Love should be? Because we are naturally impatient in all things. We want our spouse to be hot and slim, have a lot of money, faithful and even to accomplish what we want etc etc.. we want all those, and when we dont get them, we get all raged up and blame God for bringing the worst for them. Hey, you chose the spouse, so he is signed, sealed and delivered to you, so no refund. HAHAHAHA.. <br />
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This is where you, as a spouse, need to consciously pray this prayer "Lord, give me enough grace and humility to get through today and open up my eyes to love my husband/wife better today even if I feel like I want to die and kill him/her". Somehow after awhile, God gave me enough strength, perserverance, joy and peace to deal with petty issues and to see things slightly better than before... Somehow things get better communicated and issues are slowly being treated with a lot a lot a lot of grace and mercy. Both of us communicated better, relationship is slowly mending and we laugh more now and we begin to be more forgiving as when the Holy Spirit nudges us more often now.<br />
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Believe me, there is a redemption story out of your story. It is beautiful and more rewarding than anything else in this world! It is just the beginning but take heart. have courage. have hope.<br />
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My prayer for you would be:<br />
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Heavenly Father, as the reader is getting married or planning to have marriage or just starting a marriage, I pray that You work so tremendously in their hearts. Break the entitlement attitude in them, mold them according to how You want them to be, show them the right way to speak to their spouse, teach them to be more gracious towards one another, surround them with Your protection, grow their faith in this journey and most importantly, teach them on how to Your sons/daughter first before being a husband/wife to their spouse. In the areas of fear, remind them of Your faithfulness and grace, in times of temptation, make them flee and walk further.. in times of faithlessness, you bring Your people to walk with them and counsel them. I pray for special blessing of joy, love, peace and faithfulness in your marriage! Take courage and go in love. In jesus name. Amen.<br />
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Until then,<br />
XOXO.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-74939407131699830842016-04-11T00:17:00.000+08:002016-04-11T02:17:31.110+08:00Spelling Out Life... With Brokenness and Redemptions Hey.. I'm back for a while.<br />
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Lately I've been experiencing a ride of emotional journey. But it could not have been better. I know I made all the mistakes that I've done. I've broken several hearts and hurt some egos along the ways. I too have not shed my weights.<br />
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I broke the heart of another. We fought over principles, I wanted her to not get into deeper shit, I wanted her to make the right choices in life, I wanted her to not get further hurt, I wanted her to stay good, I have had high expectations on her all these while and I wanted it to stay that way. But I broke her heart, I was angry, I wasn't the one she trusted, I felt disappointed, I felt provoked, I was downcasted, I was heartbroken, I felt small and I felt that some part of me died and I've cursed her and everything she has and will have. I was controlling her choices and I let my expectations broke my heart. It was my mistake. I was holding on to a false hope and I wanted to control it. I wanted to know that I still have a part of my life still intact or at least hope that it was the only thing left good in that part of my life. I was indeed stupid for having that highest expectations! So yes, I was wrong. I was leaning so much on my understanding, my strength and my foolish foolish mind.<br />
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And yet, Isn't it beautiful how God wants us to draw our hearts to Him and not onto men and this happen?<br />
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Bet you are thinking, do I still want to forgive her? Hard question. My close friend reminded me to not struggle with forgiveness and not to expect forgiveness to happen immediately when hearts are still broken and hurt. Deep down inside I know I will eventually forgive because I don't think I have the capacity to be angry at anyone for a long time. Right now I can only pray for healing in my heart, pray for myself to grow as His daughter and a heart of compassion towards people who I am struggling to love.<br />
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And to guide my along this simple life of mine of self discovery in Him, He reminded of the redemption story that He once bore and lived through. So this few weeks, I know well that it's all about redemption that had happened and will happen.<br />
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It has begun. I believe so.<br />
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Xoxo,<br />
Joygracia.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-37845236671504207592015-07-13T22:25:00.001+08:002015-07-13T22:31:12.566+08:00Spelling Out Life... With MarriageHonestly it's tough work. You realize how stupid, selfish and fearful you are as a person. <div><br></div><div>I guess this is the phase where you wish you know it all because it's tough work. </div><div><br></div><div>Ah well, marriage is what you get when you say I Do and marriage challenges your brain cells and heart core. </div><div><br></div><div>Enjoy it while you still live. </div>Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-78442609629645927832014-01-12T22:44:00.000+08:002014-01-12T22:44:24.651+08:00Spelling Out Life... with Working Phaseok. I'm working now.<br />
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Time flies huh. Now i'm working in Bangsar, based here for a short while. Meeting the gorgeous people in the spa house. There are Master Zhang, Viji, Lynette, Melyn, Ruhana and Afzan. They are beautiful inside and God really blessed me with their presence! Uncle Zhang is from China, a really really great father figure! </div>
Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-59451942069830517742014-01-12T22:43:00.000+08:002014-01-12T22:43:28.490+08:00Spelling Out Life.. with 2014God is Good.<br />
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I have to say this. He sustained me the whole year last year. This year, He is my Jehovah Shammah. Whatever it will be, I pray that He will teach me how to love like Him and how to live like Him. That's it.<br />
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My dreams and wishes for this year that I wanna experience:<br />
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1. are I want to go to islands. Different islands. I don't know why. I just want to feel the breeze.<br />
2. are Enough financial help to go forth with the wedding<br />
3. are Professionalism.<br />
4. are God surprises me in everything I do.<br />
5. are God guiding me through every decisions.<br />
6. are God teaching me this year about love, responsibility, grace and hope.<br />
7. are travelling around to new cities and have more than enough funds to go around!<br />
8. are God providing me a hunger for Him every step of the day.<br />
9. are me acknowledging God in all that I experience.<br />
10. are God's strength in all that I go through.<br />
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In Jesus name,<br />
amen.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-81368717123459690742013-07-31T01:49:00.003+08:002013-07-31T01:49:49.786+08:00Spelling Out Life... with GraduationI want to thank:<br />
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1. my parents for patiently giving me money every semester<br />
2. Paul for giving me money, aid, support and attention everyday for the past 3 years.<br />
3. my CF friends: Su-Jian, Nernny etc etc. batch of 2009-2013, you guys are the core of support in prayers and actions.<br />
4. my TESL friends: Ina, Qila, Luke, Ku, Pian, Hasif, and Reza and the rest of the classmates. Ina, please know that our 5 years together mean a lot to me. The Geng Tujuh, please know that I love you guys for standing by me in 3 and half years. :)<br />
5. my ICC friends: Daniel Singh and the family, Amy and Tim, Bobby, Alex, Charlene, Jon, Jen, Carolyn, Lex, Judith, Eto, Abraham, Sharon, Pr Ben etc etc... thank you for giving me joy through all my doubts and sorrows.<br />
6. my ex roommates: Ah Saw, Esther and most importantly, Yee Yeong (Wai Wai): You girls watch me grow. Thank you for putting up on my ridiculous character. I love you Wai Wai, and I thank you for not giving up on me.<br />
7. my KTHO friends: Syiqah, wan, nana, JAKSA KTHO, thanks for teaching me a good life.<br />
8. my UKM-Faculty & non-ukm friends from Selangor, Sarawak, Melaka, Johor, Kelantan, Pahang, Perak etc etc.. You have been a great friend to me. God made me know you and blessed me with your love and care.<br />
9. most importantly: God. He made this happen. He made me happen.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-50281822744444618132013-07-15T22:23:00.003+08:002013-07-15T22:23:46.796+08:00Spelling out Life... with the angry sour pussI am angry at myself. I wish I could die. Leaving my faith for a month is making me a different person that people say "that's not the joy i know". I'm pretty much fucked up inside. I'm angry for no apparent reason. I HATE myself right now. I blame others for my own faults. I hate myself for being so stupid and shallow. I hate myself for being so annoying. I hate myself for being a burden to many. I hate everything that is bugging me. I am so pissed at everyone and everything. I am a loner. I want to be alone. I want to fuck my life. i love swearing. i have been swearing a lot lately. I feel very sien. SIEN. mcb. Im pissed. leaving the big man up there is fucking my life up. I cant even say his name or even name him as someone i should be looking up to.<br />
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ahhhhhh.. mcb! screw me. screw everyone around me. i hate this post. fucking ass post.<br />
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<br />Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-43537907224193532412013-01-14T01:31:00.000+08:002013-01-14T01:31:15.008+08:00Spelling Out Life... with AnticipationI can't wait to teach next month! God, I don't know what I'll face in school, but I strongly believe that this is the crazy passion You gave me and You will bring me through with strength, joy, faith, encouragements, support and wisdom. I REALLY REALLY can't wait! I've been waiting for 5 years to reach to this practicum level! I may not remember what I learnt in the classes in university, but I REALLY REALLY can't wait to teach in Your way! :D<br />
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Pray for me folks, for I REALLY REALLY REALLY CAN'T WAIT! Pray for the teenagers that I'm going to impact and show hope to! Pray for them to grow in love, respect and wisdom! :)<br />
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Love always,<br />
All Glory Goes Back to the LORD.<br />
Amen.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-36067171816882836022013-01-11T15:47:00.001+08:002013-01-11T15:47:38.323+08:00Spelling Out Life... with New YearIt has been 11 days since New Year but who cares, HAPPY NEW YEAR EVERYONE! I just want to give thank to the LORD God, my Jesus Christ, my comforter, the Holy Spirit for a whole new year ahead of me and of yours. :)<br />
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Here's a poem to start the year!<br />
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Sweet, bitter, sour and plain</div>
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experiences that are to gain</div>
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joy, anger, tears and dry</div>
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emotions that are to pass by</div>
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to Him all glory and praise</div>
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as His name be sound all our days</div>
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Oh Hail! oh Hail! the sound of Grace</div>
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for He lives while we race! </div>
Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-58257670877396138082012-11-23T15:18:00.000+08:002012-11-23T15:18:17.097+08:00Spelling Out Life... with Smiles Again<br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;">
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amen.</div>
Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-26191147260905314922012-11-02T22:00:00.003+08:002012-11-02T22:00:57.239+08:00Spelling Out Life... with Disappointmentsim still disappointed, God. I am. Everyday I wish I can scream it out to someone, everyday I wish I'm in an empty room far far away where it's just You listening to me how hurt I am, You being there. Everyday, Lord. everyday I wish You just take the disappointment away. I guess, it's just a wish for You.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com1tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-34782744669970305522012-10-16T22:56:00.001+08:002012-10-16T22:56:21.611+08:00Spelling out Life... with 3 deaths and 3 Weddings<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Hey guys,</span></span><div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">I know some of you have not known this, but I just had my third funeral in 10 months last month on the 6 Sept. It is still painful and sad for me, not only I lost someone who watched me grow from birth, but I lost someone whom I dearly loved, my uncle Joe. He succumbed to nose cancer but I believe God restored his soul along the way.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">But God is good. Although it is pretty hard to acknowledge that right now. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">You know how I know?</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">He added unto us 3 weddings to replace the tears we shed.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">My brother's wedding was a day after Uncle Joe's death.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">My cousin's wedding was a day after Uncle Joe's burial.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Yet, the weekend that Uncle Joe's passing, it was freaking shitty hard. I had emotional breakdown for a week or two after the funeral and the weddings. My brains can't handle two distinct emotions in a good one day. Imagine, funeral during the day, wedding at night and the day after. It was insane. I really thank God for a new month, a new day and patient companies who stood by me and cried with me. </span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">I miss you, uncle.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Here's a gift for you because it was emotionally hard to give it to you the day when you reach heaven and meet Daddy God, Ipu Kerato and Ipu Beridang. :(</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif; font-size: large;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Smile, daughter, smile</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">thoughts that bristles and tingle, </span></span><span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">that smile,</span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 14.116666793823242px;"> captivates me all the time</span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">and it kept me.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Alive. </span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">For all the time I had.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Alive is what your smiles made me.</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Please, in all you do,</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, 'Times New Roman', serif; line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">smile, daughter, smile.</span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">Even when i'm not on the wheels again</span></span></div>
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<span style="color: #333333; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><span style="line-height: 14.116666793823242px;">it kept me.</span></span></div>
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Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-20852263190670398642012-09-19T23:46:00.001+08:002012-09-19T23:46:06.510+08:00Spelling Out Life... with Mirror HerShe becomes your expectation when you least know it<div>
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She becomes less of nothingness when she finally found her heart left</div>
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She yearns to build her self again,</div>
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She's retaliating because you want her to be your expectation.</div>
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She's retaliating because experiences will nurture her, not you.</div>
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She's retaliating because she wants herself back, not the image you want of her.</div>
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She's retaliating because she knows she is perfect, but not in your time.</div>
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She's retaliating because that love she had was scarred deep inside, not because she had none.</div>
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Oh Lord, Lord, teach me words of life once again that I may worship You again and bless others with it. I've been nothing but "I Dont Know" or "I cant". teach me to stop being useless and give me the heart to grow again. I'm tired and lost.<br />
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<br />Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-72537874756485468192012-08-29T23:32:00.001+08:002012-08-29T23:36:03.720+08:00Spelling Out Life with... His Strength! Oh boy, it's not easy. It needs constant reminder not to fall back into sexual immoralities, lustful thoughts, speeches and actions. But to make it clear, I have not had sex with anyone ever in my life, which I thank God He had been there preventing me for a good long few years now. Good God he is. :)<br />
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Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-7835014773944447352012-06-24T00:00:00.000+08:002012-07-07T22:23:05.885+08:00Spelling Out Life... with The Lord's CallHey guys, how are ya?<br />
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I've been having some quiet time lately, it has been good. :) Today, I've read the book of Haggai coz that's what He wants me to learn from. From the utter painful cane from book of Hosea, He reminds me about His forgiveness and grace that He wants me to have after a long time. A few verses stroke my mind as I spent time with Him.<br />
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For I have forgotten the ways that You want me to have, restore in me the heart to be passionate for this land, the people and for Your words. This is what You have called me for and flame it back, Lord. </div>
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I hope I don't mislead all of you from the Truth that I have in my life. The truth of how He is real to me is there but it's not easy when you become a Christian. It's just NOT!<br />
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<span style="background-color: white;">Follow my old posts since 2007, I've been downright falling into shit, yet I know the Lord is with me. I've been up in my head, there He is knocking my down a notch. I've been a stupid Christian on and off my entire life, yet He is molding me through every seasons of it. Imagine, the good times are actually more than those bad ones! You know why? God is good! He gives you the joy and grace through the bad ones, hence, good experience topples those bad ones! :) The affair my dad had before was excruciatingly painful but He was there through my godfamily, my ex and best friends. :) The joy they gave me was the joy that He wanted me to have. :) I came out of it believing in Him and correcting my father. See, who says you can't talk back to your parents? I had a chance and it made a difference! :) Praise His name for all the trials I had, even now. :) </span></div>
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Amen</div>Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-26342132321312797682012-06-16T14:16:00.002+08:002012-06-16T14:18:59.301+08:00Spelling Out Life... with Take heartI came across the song "Take Heart" by Hillsong on Youtube yesterday evening. The lyrics spoke to me heart and I was sobbing alone in my cubicle in the library! I honestly don't know of the hurt I've given to myself and to others, it's eating me up inside and I believe that the Lord is speaking to me about letting it go. But I'm not ready to trust again. I went in the game early and I lost. I lost in a big fight. Everyone said I'm not ready and I'm not capable to play the game and here I am, I'm not going to play the game anymore. I had enough of losing this game. I can't. I'm not strong and capable. and so be it.<br />
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Just want to thank God today for giving me a good start of the day, not that any other day is bad, but today, I just found out my close friend, deedee, got a job with Jon. I'm glad that he is taking her in his production team. :) She thanked me for introducing her to Jon and I was glad God answered her prayer. :) I woke up and that's the first text I received! It's wonderful to able to help someone. :D Praise God huh!!<br />
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And the best part of all, my brunch today was paid by one of my office admins! SO HAPPY! I think I took a lot of sayur and I was really praying and got scared if I have not enough money to pay. Then Abang Fendi went behind me and asked "is that all you're eating? I pay for you la.", SO HAPPY ba me!!! HAHAHA..<br />
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Another thing, my council money got reimbursed! YEY! So happy! I got enough for the week.<br />
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Thank God for Paul in helping me financially too!<br />
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Thank You God! :D For helping me through and loving me all day through!<br />
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I'm a happy girl.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-50501476373154694122012-06-13T22:18:00.000+08:002012-06-13T22:18:02.213+08:00Spelling Out Life.. with GodIf you ask me how much I know the Bible, I can proudly tell you I don't know much!<br />
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If you ask me who spoke of what verse in the Bible, I don't know. Honestly.<br />
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If you ask me how many titles does God have, I don't know. Only a few. HAHA..<br />
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If you ask me about the theology of Trinity, I have little to explain it to you!<br />
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If you ask me about who are Jesus' decendents, I think I'll mix the characters up!<br />
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If you ask me about the people around Jesus's life, I'll get blur and says "Maybe they are the jews? Pharisees? Disciples?".<br />
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That's how shallow I am towards the Bible.<br />
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But honestly, I love God, I know how faithful, loving, cool, funny, crazy, strict, jealous, good, kind, supportive, caring, just, discipline, protective is He to me! He is my father, friend, my pillar, my provider, teacher and shelter. God is good to me in all the shitty things I've been through. As much as I hate to admit it, he IS my REDEEMER and SAVIOUR, though I don't deserve to receive His grace. I change because of Him. I love because of Him. I cry for the lost and broken souls because of Him. I live because He died for me. I shine because of Him. I am me because He made me. I am free, though I fall. I have a purpose in life, though I screw things up. I have everything because He is with me.<br />
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that's all that I know of my daddy. He's a cool God. :)<br />
<br />Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-45903752264067923282012-06-13T12:09:00.000+08:002012-06-13T12:09:06.737+08:00Spelling Out Life... with HelpHelp me Lord. I'm struggling inside. Every part of me is screaming and mourning over my mistakes. Help me, God.Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-13424160292237703112012-06-13T12:00:00.002+08:002012-06-13T12:00:25.194+08:00Spelling Out Life... with Marriage?<div style="text-align: justify;">
I bet some of you heard of the stories how I wanted to get married and all. I did, once. Few months back. But I guess the whole thing kind of blew off when a huge number of people said I'm incapable of doing one. SO YES, no marriage! YEY! </div>
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Pretty much bump out the first few weeks but I'm okay now. Right now, to me it is something where I cant afford to think about or look at. Thinking about my past somehow shattered the whole idea of purity and no point of having one when you're in that state of mind. You must be telling yourself "Joy, get over it. God redeems. He will redeem you of your heart, your mind and your soul". but I'm telling myself "He redeems, so no point of thinking about it anymore.". the end.</div>
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Not for me, I guess. No bells, no dresses, nothing. It's pretty much stressing everybody out, it brings so much of a problem. so takda la ya.</div>
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Just don't bring it up in front of my face or I'll bite your head off. HAHAHA. Just kidding. :)</div>Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-84816762149510701512012-06-11T13:57:00.004+08:002012-06-11T21:51:05.954+08:00Spelling Out Life.. with Confession of a SinnerGod has been good for leading me to the Book Hosea. He has been good. I'm just the stupid one that ignores Him. I guess when one confessed of their sexual past, they are too ashamed to tell it to someone close. It is that bad to confess it to someone. the holy figure that they placed on you is gone now, you are the liar and the hypocrite. So yes, I'm that liar and hypocrite. LOL. Oops. I just shattered your views on me now. Like what Liza said "You're not so innocent after all.".. Yea.<br />
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At this time around, I'm learning to overcome it. I'm learning to let it go. U know, all the sex stuff. From up there in the head to speech to actions. I've been hiding for a long long time now, thanks Michelle and Joshua for teaching me repentance. You've heard of my stories, yet you said I am able to go through it, when I feel so unclean and such a big liar to the people around me. thanks for pushing me earlier on though I chose not to listen. I chose to be stupid and stubborn. I chose to be blind. I chose to play dirty over purity. I chose shame over shamelessness. I chose death over life. I chose all these sexual immoralities over God. The God that continuously teaching me life, love, joy, peace.... that same God who is faithful, who is jealous, who is pure, holy, my shepherd, my father, my friend. I caused HIM to die on that cross. I caused HIM to be beaten. I caused HIS lungs to be stabbed. I caused HIM to come all the way down from heaven. I cause HIM to wear that thorn. I caused HIM to sweat of blood. cry and sweat of blood. I've cried before, but not shed with blood.<br />
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God, you know my heart. You cause it to beat. You saw my pasts. You were there, hurt. Now, please have me back again. I'm sorry. Cleanse me again so that I can be closer to You and spend more time with You. Help me. Guide me and break me. I need Your help in this.<br />
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I need Your help.<br />
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God, I'm cursing inside. hoping that these people around me hear me. hoping that they hear my hunger. hoping that they hear my anguish. hoping they hear my hatred towards it. im angry at it. this is useless. this is stupid. i hate it. i hate it. i hate it. God, i dont know what You want but i just wish there was nothing to begin with. I'm not learning, damn it. I'm not. I'm not. I feel 10 times stupid now. !@#@ !@## !@$#!!!!!<br />
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Hosea 5</h3>
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<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-1" style="position: relative;">Pay attention, you Israelites!</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-1" style="position: relative;">Listen, royal house!</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-1" style="position: relative;">This judgment<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22154A" title="See cross-reference A">A</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22154A" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference A">A</a>)</sup> is against you:</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-1" style="position: relative;">You have been a snare<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22154B" title="See cross-reference B">B</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22154B" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference B">B</a>)</sup> at Mizpah,</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-1" style="position: relative;">a net<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22154C" title="See cross-reference C">C</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22154C" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference C">C</a>)</sup> spread out on Tabor.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-2" id="en-NIV-22155" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">2 </sup>The rebels are knee-deep in slaughter.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22155D" title="See cross-reference D">D</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22155D" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference D">D</a>)</sup></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-2" style="position: relative;">I will discipline all of them.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22155E" title="See cross-reference E">E</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22155E" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference E">E</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-3" id="en-NIV-22156" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">3 </sup><span style="color: red;">I know all about Ephraim;</span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-3" style="position: relative;">Israel is not hidden<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22156F" title="See cross-reference F">F</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22156F" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference F">F</a>)</sup> from me.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-3" style="color: red; position: relative;">Ephraim, you have now turned to prostitution;</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="color: red; font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-3" style="position: relative;"><span style="color: red;">Israel is corrupt</span>.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22156G" title="See cross-reference G">G</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22156G" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference G">G</a>)</sup></span></span></div>
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<span class="text Hos-5-4" id="en-NIV-22157" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">4 </sup>“Their deeds do not permit them</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-4" style="position: relative;">to return<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22157H" title="See cross-reference H">H</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22157H" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference H">H</a>)</sup> to their God.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-4" style="position: relative;">A spirit of prostitution<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22157I" title="See cross-reference I">I</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22157I" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference I">I</a>)</sup> is in their heart;</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-4" style="position: relative;">they do not acknowledge<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22157J" title="See cross-reference J">J</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22157J" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference J">J</a>)</sup> the <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-5" id="en-NIV-22158" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">5 </sup>Israel’s arrogance testifies<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22158K" title="See cross-reference K">K</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22158K" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference K">K</a>)</sup> against them;</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-5" style="position: relative;">the Israelites, even Ephraim, stumble<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22158L" title="See cross-reference L">L</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22158L" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference L">L</a>)</sup> in their sin;</span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-5" style="position: relative;">Judah also stumbles with them.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22158M" title="See cross-reference M">M</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22158M" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference M">M</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-6" id="en-NIV-22159" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">6 </sup><span style="color: red;">When they go with their flocks and herds</span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-6" style="position: relative;">to seek the <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>,<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22159N" title="See cross-reference N">N</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22159N" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference N">N</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-6" style="color: red; position: relative;">they will not find him;</span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-6" style="position: relative;">he has withdrawn<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22159O" title="See cross-reference O">O</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22159O" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference O">O</a>)</sup> himself from them.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-7" id="en-NIV-22160" style="color: red; position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">7 </sup>They are unfaithful<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22160P" title="See cross-reference P">P</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22160P" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference P">P</a>)</sup> to the <span class="small-caps" style="font-variant: small-caps;">Lord</span>;</span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-7" style="position: relative;">they give birth to illegitimate<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22160Q" title="See cross-reference Q">Q</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22160Q" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference Q">Q</a>)</sup> children.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-7" style="color: red; position: relative;">When they celebrate their New Moon feasts,<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22160R" title="See cross-reference R">R</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22160R" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference R">R</a>)</sup></span><br />
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<span class="text Hos-5-8" style="position: relative;">Raise the battle cry in Beth Aven<sup class="footnote" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="[<a href="#fen-NIV-22161b" title="See footnote b">b</a>]">[<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#fen-NIV-22161b" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See footnote b">b</a>]</sup>;<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22161W" title="See cross-reference W">W</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22161W" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference W">W</a>)</sup></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-8" style="position: relative;">lead on, Benjamin.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-9" id="en-NIV-22162" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">9 </sup>Ephraim will be laid waste<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22162X" title="See cross-reference X">X</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22162X" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference X">X</a>)</sup></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-9" style="position: relative;">on the day of reckoning.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22162Y" title="See cross-reference Y">Y</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22162Y" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference Y">Y</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-9" style="position: relative;">Among the tribes of Israel</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-9" style="position: relative;">I proclaim what is certain.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22162Z" title="See cross-reference Z">Z</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22162Z" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference Z">Z</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-10" id="en-NIV-22163" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">10 </sup>Judah’s leaders are like those</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-10" style="position: relative;">who move boundary stones.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22163AA" title="See cross-reference AA">AA</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22163AA" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AA">AA</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-10" style="position: relative;">I will pour out my wrath<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22163AB" title="See cross-reference AB">AB</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22163AB" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AB">AB</a>)</sup> on them</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-10" style="position: relative;">like a flood of water.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-11" id="en-NIV-22164" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">11 </sup>Ephraim is oppressed,</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-11" style="position: relative;">trampled in judgment,</span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-11" style="position: relative;">intent on pursuing idols.<sup class="footnote" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="[<a href="#fen-NIV-22164c" title="See footnote c">c</a>]">[<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#fen-NIV-22164c" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See footnote c">c</a>]</sup><sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22164AC" title="See cross-reference AC">AC</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22164AC" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AC">AC</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-12" id="en-NIV-22165" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">12 </sup>I am like a moth<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22165AD" title="See cross-reference AD">AD</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22165AD" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AD">AD</a>)</sup> to Ephraim,</span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-12" style="position: relative;">like rot<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22165AE" title="See cross-reference AE">AE</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22165AE" style="color: #b37162; text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AE">AE</a>)</sup> to the people of Judah.</span></span></div>
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<span class="text Hos-5-13" id="en-NIV-22166" style="position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">13 </sup>“<span style="color: red;">When Ephraim<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22166AF" title="See cross-reference AF">AF</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22166AF" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AF">AF</a>)</sup> saw his sickness,</span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-13" style="position: relative;">and Judah his sores,</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-13" style="color: red; position: relative;">then Ephraim turned to Assyria,<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22166AG" title="See cross-reference AG">AG</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22166AG" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AG">AG</a>)</sup></span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-13" style="position: relative;">and sent to the great king for help.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22166AH" title="See cross-reference AH">AH</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22166AH" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AH">AH</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-13" style="color: red; position: relative;">But he is not able to cure<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22166AI" title="See cross-reference AI">AI</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22166AI" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AI">AI</a>)</sup> you,</span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-13" style="position: relative;">not able to heal your sores.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22166AJ" title="See cross-reference AJ">AJ</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22166AJ" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AJ">AJ</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-14" id="en-NIV-22167" style="color: red; position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">14 </sup>For I will be like a lion<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22167AK" title="See cross-reference AK">AK</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22167AK" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AK">AK</a>)</sup> to Ephraim,</span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-14" style="position: relative;">like a great lion to Judah.</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-14" style="color: red; position: relative;">I will tear them to pieces<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22167AL" title="See cross-reference AL">AL</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22167AL" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AL">AL</a>)</sup> and go away;</span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-14" style="position: relative;">I will carry them off, with no one to rescue them.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22167AM" title="See cross-reference AM">AM</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22167AM" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AM">AM</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-15" id="en-NIV-22168" style="color: red; position: relative;"><sup class="versenum" style="display: block; font-size: 0.75em; font-weight: bold; left: -4.8em; position: absolute; vertical-align: top;">15 </sup>Then I will return to my lair<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22168AN" title="See cross-reference AN">AN</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22168AN" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AN">AN</a>)</sup></span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-15" style="position: relative;">until they have borne their guilt<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22168AO" title="See cross-reference AO">AO</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22168AO" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AO">AO</a>)</sup></span></span><br />
<span class="indent-1" style="color: red;"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-15" style="position: relative;">and seek my face<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22168AP" title="See cross-reference AP">AP</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22168AP" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AP">AP</a>)</sup>—</span></span><br />
<span class="text Hos-5-15" style="color: red; position: relative;">in their misery<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22168AQ" title="See cross-reference AQ">AQ</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22168AQ" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AQ">AQ</a>)</sup></span><br />
<span class="indent-1"><span class="indent-1-breaks" style="color: red; font-family: monospace; font-size: 0.42em; line-height: 0;"> </span><span class="text Hos-5-15" style="position: relative;"><span style="color: red;">they will earnestly seek me.<sup class="crossreference" style="font-size: 0.65em; font-weight: bold; vertical-align: top;" value="(<a href="#cen-NIV-22168AR" title="See cross-reference AR">AR</a>)">(<a href="http://www.biblegateway.com/passage/?search=Hosea+5&version=NIV#cen-NIV-22168AR" style="text-decoration: none; vertical-align: top;" title="See cross-reference AR">AR</a>)</sup></span>”</span></span></div>
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and I am these people. Pray for me. Help me. Walk with me. Until I'm back with the LORD again. </div>
</div>Miss JoyGraciahttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12840430603066325609noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-4256372910584362500.post-27365161784221717412012-06-09T00:39:00.000+08:002012-06-09T00:39:40.728+08:00Spelling Out Life... with Crossroads her shadows flicker on the ground<br />
lost of words, directions and colours<br />
stepping sounds fill her mind<br />
yet none, no voices are heard.<br />
gushing of winds and waves creeps in<br />
demanding a heart of hers<br />
she doesn't want to fall<br />
not now. not now. certainly not now!<br />
then she stops at the crossroads,<br />
only to find a shining little coin and a few more ahead.<br />
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