Wednesday, December 30, 2009

Spelling Out Life... with Female's Dictionary

Ahhh.. Since when women has their own dictionary? Since they have a pattern of doing so! LOL. So boys, brace yourself with a tight seatbelt as you read this! Haha!

Yes = No

No = Yes

Maybe = No

I’m sorry. = You’ll be sorry.

We need... = I want

It’s your decision = The correct decision should be obvious by now.

Do what you want... = You’ll pay for this later.

We need to talk... = I need to complain

Sure...go ahead = I don’t want you to.

I’m not upset = Of course I’m upset, you moron!

You’re so manly = You need a shave and you sweat a lot.

You’re certainly attentive tonight = Is sex all you ever think about?

Be romantic, turn out the lights = I have flabby thighs.

This kitchen is so inconvenient = I want a new house.

I want new curtains = ...and carpeting, and furniture, and wallpaper.....

Hang the picture there = NO, I mean hang it there!

I heard a noise = I noticed you were almost asleep.

Do you love me? = I’m going to ask for something expensive.

How much do you love me? = I did something today you’re really not going to like.

I’ll be ready in a minute = Kick off your shoes and find a good game on TV. Coz I'll be long.

Am I fat? = Tell me I’m beautiful.

You have to learn to communicate. = Just agree with me.

Are you listening to me!? = Too late, you’re dead.

Was that the baby? = Why don’t you get out of bed and walk him until he goes to sleep.

I'm not yelling! = Yes I am yelling because I think this is important.

In response to What’s wrong?:

The same old thing = Nothing

Nothing = Everything

Nothing, really = It’s just that you’re such an idiot!

Easy to read, isn't it? =D

Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Spelling out Life with... New Year, New me?

change is good.

change makes things better.

So, 2010, I'm going to make it even more spicier! :D


1. learn to be MORE positive-minded

2. do my best in events that will be running in UKM

3. hang out with my classmates more often

4. serve in PERKEB

5. drive to Perak one day

6. drive to Johor too

7. not going back to Miri, year end? since I'll be there for pre-practicum during Mid year! wuhoo!

8. see grace again. dont know how, but i want to

9. get Live Luxe by J.LO (beautiful scent)

10. be active in BSMM, PERKEB, COLLEGE DINNER and assignment. ONLY. :)

Spelling out Life... with Thanksgiving of 2009

Start counting your blessings since it's coming to an end!! :)

Here is the top10 list of mine:

1. Duo Night Fantasia - directing a play "I dont want to be A Princess"

2. Serve in Campus Alive,Shah Alam - awesome period

3. Serve in FGA church - Ushering is GREAT!

4. Helping out in CHC - again, USHERING is fun!

5. Birthday - Thanks DEE for coming over. :) Appreciate it all.

6. got in UKM - great one!

7. joined pantun, Red Cross, puisi and debate - HAHAHAH

8. being able to come to Sydney & Mlebourne

9. CHC youth ministry picnic. LOL. Kenaidy and I had a good talk.

10. FOC camp, The Plan Conference - all mind blowing!

So what's yours?

Monday, December 21, 2009

Spelling out Life... With Paranormal Activity

While watching this, I got GOOSEBUMPS! LOL. All of you should watch this.. It's about a young couple that move in a house and next thing you know, all ends in hell. :D I even got freaking nightmare coz of it! I dreamt of my mother gripping my hand and scratching it deep into my skin. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. Ahh well, it's a good scary show. LOL.
Spilling out of words,

Friday, December 18, 2009

Spelling out Life... With in Love

when it hits you, it hits hard, that's what people say about love.


I see one flaw about me. I love love. but I can't trully share love with people, that's where selfishness comes in. A wise man, namely CS LEWIS, said to love is to be vulnerable. I couldn't see the fact that someone GOT to be vulnerable or exposed just to feel loved and to love, especially not me.

I once have feelings for this one guy, pretty much not over him, obviously. LOL. I was able to give my lovey dovey actions (FYI, certainly not sex) to him, most importantly, to others gladly. I was being sincerely loving everybody else. Anyhoo, everything messed up, until now, it got complicated. The more years added in this formula, the more dip-crap I get myself into. "WOAH JOY, GET OVER HIM". yea, tell that to God. heh. Erm, not only this whole unfinished business got me into this level, there are some other major things that got me into THIS level. Oh, this is just a minimal thing. Really. If the major issues are conquered, I'll be easily in love with anyone new. HAHAHAHAHA.. All in all, I can't afford to love people much. that's the bottom line.

I'm certainly not being emo now. I just don't see the need of completely love anyone. U getting me? LOL.

I might blame myself for staying a spinster when I grow old and die.

Anyone care to be my flings next year?
oh, no worries I'll still update if I have any crushes next year, here.
You have to just wait and see.


Spilling Out of Words,

Wednesday, December 2, 2009

Spelling out Life... With Falling

Sometimes I wonder why I am such a hopeless romantic. Seriously. I like people too fast. I like having the thoughts of "I'm going to have 6 kids with him, live in a nice country home alike and teach in a tough class and make a difference.." or 3 kids, if my mood changes. LOL.

Just so you know, I have the tendancy to leave the guys too.

I thank God for the signs to not continue my feelings.

which means I'm still single because of Him.


I find myself in a position to like someone now. OH WELL, my period is here now.

So, i'm blaming it for making me feel cheesy.


Anyway, I don't know this guy. Neither does he.


*i know, you have to know someone, to like someone etc etc*

which IS true!

so, LIKE I SAID, i'm a hopeless romantic.

truth be told, I only read his blog.

such a great author/blogger and singer/composer.

he seems different.
*awwwww..Yes.. I paham..*

I ultimately don't know him. sad kan?


I'm just letting it out here, since I don't know who to tell.

I kinda hope he knows me and we'll fall in love or something.


note to reader: i'm getting emotional now. the HR (hopeless romantic) side of me is

out and my emo-ness is rampantly out of my systems now. T.T

Anyhoo, IF we were to fall in love, WHICH I DOUBT WE WILL,

I'd say my life would be just like Sleepless Seattle, in WHICH


What a beautiful movie. :)

Let us see how many hours my emo-ness lasts

Usually it ends after a while. feels like crying now. having PMS is not a fun thing to have. imbalance hormones. :(

Spilling out of Emo-ness



Friday, November 27, 2009

Spelling Out Life... with Christmas

Merry Christmas Everyone!

It's the time of the year again!

Let me remind you again, it is NOT about santa!
(if you arrange it properly, it means satan)

It is about the birth of Jesus Christ, the ever Reigning Son of God,
who IS the founder of Christianity.

It may be fun to look at santa, bright lights, beautiful decor and reindeers, no doubt bout that.
But never lose sight who is the real reason for Christmas.
in order to do so,
let us do a simple math for each one of us to remember.



It's NOT bout satan.
It's ABOUT Jesus.


Merry Christmas again!

Spilling out of Joy!

Spelling Out Life... with Christmas Presents

When people lists down their long list of wishes and dreams for Christmas,
I have not listed down mine.

This year, I only wish FOR certain things:

1. Spending more time with Grace
2. Get Britney Spears' latest perfume
3. New pair of jeans
5. Friends to call me on my phone to say "merry christmas!"

that's all.
Nothing fancy, just need fellowship and perfume. :D

Merry Christmas People.

again, Christmas is not about Santa!

Spilling out of Confirmation!

Saturday, November 21, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With a HUGE desire

I always knew I have something in me that is DIFFERENT.
I have desires that want to change people, want to lead people and want to be with people.
Since young, all my profession choices always related to saving people and helping people.
May it be a fire fighter, police, doctor, engineer, teacher or a fashion designer!
As time passes by, I prayed.
I got what I prayed for -- A passion to change the Youth.
It is a good thing.
and it is a bad thing either. Hmm.. Weird isn't it? :)
Initially, I prayed that I'll get Education ministry as my choice of study.
I got it.
Then, I suddenly have a stir in my heart that I am bigger than this!
What is?
I'm not sure.
I went to Mission conference, I prayed again.
The same passion HITS me twice!
It is indeed a good thing.
No more a bad thing, just confusing.. Hmmm.. Any idea?
Consequently, I prayed that something will show up to me.
I got it.
I have vision that I saw people in my mind. clear picture in my head!
They are smiling at me. From different nation, tribes and many more!
These words "Ministry, Education, Ministers, Missions, Politics, Youth"
kept coming back to me, as well.
I have all these words to make my life out of 'em, yet, all doesnt connect with one another.
I have a desire to be MORE than what I am now!
I am not what I am in the future. I know I AM differnt.

I just need to build myself along the way.

Spilling out of Wonders!

Friday, November 20, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Grace

To Grace Liso:

God is a great One for pairing us in a family, not just in heaven before.
He understands that I can't survive well without you helping me through.
He believes that you will dig the best out of me, for His glory.
He knows too, that I need someone like you around.
I thank Him for having a sister like you.
I love you.

heheheheeheh... thanks for everything! :D

Monday, November 16, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Wii

I heard of what Wii is all about before...
That white coloured machine with odd looking joy-sticks.
Which one uses it to act out the things on screen.
and the best part, I'm finally playing it!


Budi aka Bro-In-Law is a gamer at home.
So, he has PS3 and a Wii game here.
and I get to play with it!
For the first in my life, my body sore while playing a video game before!
Imagine that!
Me having backache, arm-ache, shoulder pain from playing
Who get all sored up from playing a game??


Oh! I played bowling, tennis, golf and Mario on it!
It is soooooooooooooo cool. Love tennis the most! :DD

Anyway, you should get a hand on it if you can.. hehehehhehe

Wii Then,

Sunday, November 15, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Someday Soon

Something tells me I’m not getting under,
As time goes by like the wind.
Cause in my chest my heart is beading faster,
As I wonder where and when.
Will she come catch my eye,
Step in to my life.
I don’t know how it will be,
But here’s my word tonight.

I will love you more,
Than the ocean loves rain.
I will be your strength,
Even in the pain.
And our love will grow,
Every morning, night, and noon.
Oh, but until then,
I’ll wait for some day soon.

There’s a lot things I want to tell you,
About the future that’s in store.
For raising a family,
Where we’ll pass our love to.
A new life an open door.
But I know that there will come a day,
When nothing’s going right.
And I’ll take your hand in mine,
And walk you through the night.

(Chorus x1)

Will she come take my breath,
And knock me off my feet.
As worlds collide,
And souls inside finally meet.

I will love you more,
Than the ocean loves rain.
I will be your strength,
Even in the pain.

Nathan Angelo

Don't you think the lyric is beautiful? :) I fell in love instantly!
I found it through Jenny Sun's blog.
She made an engagement video out of it.
Sigh. I love it. :DD

Love always,

Wednesday, November 11, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Lone Ranger!

I'm currently in Singapore Changi Airport. Been here for 2hours now.

Status: Alone. Single. Available physically.

The airport is big, people-friendly and REALLY high-tech!


bah, I'll update later.

Spilling out of Excitement!

Tuesday, November 10, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With a Tiny Hope

verse 1:
would you believe me if i said...
that we are the ones who can make the change
in the world today...
would you believe me if i said...
that all of your dreams in your heart
can come true... today...
would you believe me if i said...
that life could be all that you want it to be... today...

and if i had wings i would fly
'cause all that i need, You are
and if the world caved in around me
to You i'd still hold on
cause You're all that i believe
and the one that created me
JESUS.. because of You.. i'm FREE

verse 2:
would you believe me if i said...
that God can make miracles happen today
would you believe me if i said...
that you dont need to wait for the answers before..
you step out in faith..
would you believe me if i said
that nothing is ever IMPOSSIBLE.. for God..

just live your life.. with God inside
you wont regret one moment of it
and give all that you can for God... for God

i dono why i'm stuck to this song for the past 4hours.
can i ask for a miracle that i have visa and tickets now?

Spelling Out Life... With a Crushed Dreams 2

Come to think of it, I'm okay already.
I've cried over it.
I'm still disappointed though.
I just wish that I can get my visa and tickets are emailed to me by midnight.
"just have hope" is what keeping me sane.
I don't know why it is there.
But it is there in my mind.
That tiny soft soothing voice.
I'm not angry anymore.
I'm just sad.


Sis is sad.
She bought all my personal toiletries already, only to know I'm not going.
How awesome that a father can crushed his 2 daughters' hopes.

that is how sad I am now.

Spelling Out Life... With A Quote

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind

When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply

When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of questions,
She is wondering how long you will be around

When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a few seconds,
She is not at all fine

When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying

When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever

When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention

When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once

When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it

When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are her future

When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more than that.

- Unknown

Spelling Out Life... With an Essay

That is what you get when kids get really funny!

*buduh! kenapa saya bulih terlupa*


till then,


Monday, November 9, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With an Adventure to Come


Just want to update everyone that I'm going to TRAVEL internationally ALONE!!!!

*jumping happily*

Trip 1: KL - Singapore (11 Nov Late noon)

Trip 2: Singapore - Melbourne (11 Nov Night)

Trip 3: Melbourne - Sydney (12 Nov Morning)

OHHHHHHH NO!! hahhahahahaha

Ever imagine that one day, you are entrusted with your passport, your visa and your luggage and *poof* you travel internationally alone. for the first time. a few thousand miles away from home just to spend time with your Beloved Sister.

Muahahahaha.. Anyhu, people have done that before. So now it's my turn! :D


will update you my 1st Singapore trip. :D

Till Then,


Sunday, November 8, 2009

Lesson CIE 4 - Access Work

Dear All, here is my CIE work 3. Sorry for the late postings. :)


Thursday, November 5, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Exams!!

Have you ever got into a battlefield unarmed?
I did. For Hubungan Etnik.
Pweeeety smart of me to read the past years papers.
Sensibly, people would just read the textbook, but I did, only a little.
Don't remind me.
Next year's TITAS, I'm gonna READ the TEXTBOOK.
*Twirling round and round*

Last paper is on the 11th November. Can't wait to END this sem! :D

Spilling out of Exam Thoughts!!

Spelling Out Life... With A Sad Song

If my feelings were to conclude in a song right now,
here is the perfect song for it.
It's a song by a friend's friend.

Bid You Goodbye
Lyrics and Music by Jonathan Chu

Sweet dreams my love
Fly like a dove
Away from me

I'll send you away
I'll put you away
To breathe again
So I could breathe again

I'll bid you goodbye
You know I have tried
To love you always
Goodbye, my love
I'll have you no more
No more remorse

Pain is what you gave me
And now I'll set myself free
I'll set myself free

Playing games is no longer fun.
When will it ever end, my love?
gosh. so emo. calie. xP

To those who plans to play a no-string-attached game, here's a reminder or two:
1. Better make sure you end up with the guy or girl. Or you'll suffer, big time.
2. Just get together although you have no assurance. :)

Love is a leap of faith. Gravity will always pull you down from the leap, but fear not, the faith of your love will always hold you up.

Spilling out of Shattered Thoughts.

Lesson CIE 2 - Excel Work

Hie all, here is an example of MY class. :D Not to boast that I have an awesome class to handle, but they just HAPPENED to be my "students". HAHAAHHAHAHAH. If only I have class of 20, life could be way easier. LOL. Ah well, a teacher gotta teach what a teacher gotta teach. :P If I were to complain about classes now, that defeats the purpose me serving the community, doesn't it? I hope everyone enjoys it. :)


Wednesday, October 28, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Thanksgiving!

Mind you, I just had the best letter I have in life by far! HAHAHAHAHa.. A warning email by my Hubungan Etnik lecturer on monday 26th Oct...
The problem was nobody in my group sent our group assignment in yet!

Crazy kan?

Anyway, the whole story happened when everybody thought that Person A is sending it. But Person A thought Person B is doing it. So, ended up, Person C and D gleefully living life without knowing anything UNTIL THE COMMANDMENT ARRIVED! At the end of the day, Person D sent all the work to Person B for some editing and left Person C to compile and arranged everything and sent it back to Person B for last check up before sending it in to professor. Did u know, my assignment due date is extended to 29 Oct while the actual due date was 2 weeks before? HAHAHAHHA. Worry not, we are sending everything by today. :D


I seriously couldn't imagine if I lost 30marks in that assignment! 30 marks, fyi, is not easy to gain!

Spilling out of thanksgiving.

Tuesday, October 27, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Angels

I stumbled upon Angels by Hillsong in my Itunes.
Such beautiful lyrics, angelic melody and its pleasing to ponder upon.

Here is the lyric:

Words and Music by Marty Sampson

The holiest place there could ever be
All you can do is bow
Before the one who made heaven and earth
Before the Almighty God
For Him alone

Sing with the angels
Sing with the angels
Singing the name of the lord
Singing the name of the lord

For every soul
He gave it all
Given for all of mankind
Eternal life is His alone
Given to all who believe
In Him alone


It is a rather soft side of Hillsong, if you ever listen to the rest of the album. It's like a special twist of lemon in a tea, actually. :) Instantly, I fall in love. How can you not btw? Hehehe. So yea, when I first listened to it, I somehow knew this is officially a song that I might play during my first wedding dance with my husband. *ehem*. It will be a spectacular thing for any pair of married couples to dance together, to start their journey together with this song,

IF the time is there la. LOL.

I'm in love.

Spilling out of Words... :)

Lesson CIE 1 - Brochure

Here is my CIE work. In which we are needed to design a brochure for this CIE class. Practically, I've done one 2 months ago. BUT I was so smart that I didnt save it when I did it in CIE computer lab. hahahahaha. So, here I am, with a new design and I'm LOVING it! :D Who knows I can be a good doll maker! HAHAHAHA..

Spelling Out Life... With a Question

When I thought I could hold on to you. I was wrong?
When I thought I could trust you. I was wrong?
When I thought you could be different. I was wrong?
When I thought you could have chosen friendship over love. I was wrong?
When I thought you could have been there everytime. I was wrong?
When I thought we could be a strong family. I was wrong, I suppose?

I know. Boy, I was wrong. How can I be so naive to think that "Hey, maybe this time, it could be different".

You chose that path and making me feel discarded. I thought it was understandable. But clearly, I was that problem to you. even until now. I shall take my rightful place now. I'm not being emotional. I still have a place for you.

But I'm not sure whether I have a place up in there. Should I be bothered? I don't think you even notice. Glad time is up. Glad enough. Hope you are happy. I do pray so, since that is what you clearly want.

Spilling out of Disappointments.

Wednesday, October 21, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With a Thought of Two

Life is indeed a love story.

You live because God loves you so much.
You live because He gave Jesus to die for your sins.
You live because He planned it well and good for you.
You live because He lives in you.

What more love story would we want?

There's a girl I know, she is always there to give people a tight bear hug and the warmest biggest grin. She once told me, "You know what, this world needs love. I think we should show it more often." So, reluctantly I just flow along to what she requested me to do. Hands down, it was the best thing I could do for the people around me -- the joy seen on their faces, delightful and pleasing. The one day, I chattered with her "Hey, you could possibly be the best mother and a wife to somebody. Just want you to know that." All she could reply was "Hrmm... Maybe I would. But I don't believe in marriage. Sometimes, you just know the heart that you have on the sleeve can just lose itself from the string and fall off. And at that moment, you'll get nothing in return." Ouch... I know. I tried to console her over and over but she never listens. She was scared and is still fear of commitment... And yes, she did told me that she liked this guy and said how he could be perfect for her, godly enough to bring her to God yet earthly enough to be her best friend, lover and a soulmate for life... But deep down, she knew she's just a friend to him. I tried to convince to her "It's okay. Only time will tell." Sigh. Sometimes, I wish I can tell that to myself. Hahahaha. At the mean time, let us just grow and share the love, like her. Who knows, we might just leave footprints in others' lives without knowing it. Who knows, we might just learn to let things go in the midst of giving love out. Who knows.

Anyway folks, sometimes love is there for people, sometimes love may not appear to us clearly. But love is always there, waiting for us, when we actually wait on it. Be still and know He is god. wait for love. wait for Him. because He is Love.

So, what's your love story?

Spilling out of Words,

Spelling Out Life... With a Heart for You

in the midst of chaotic disruptions
I see myself growing with you
in the midst of maddening growl
you told me to let it go
in the midst of waterfall flows
you said "Just trust Him"... knowing that I'll make it through
in the midst of my inexpressible emotions
you were quiet... understandable
in the midst of it all
i thank you for your big heart
in the midst of it all
i thank Him for you

Spilling out of Words,

Tuesday, October 13, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Short Summary Sem 1 2009/2010

For Semester 1 in UKM

I've been involved in:

1. BSMM - Learnt a lot. Somehow my brain is finally disciplined, a lil. :D
- My team got 2nd in the presentation for Simulasi in Kuantan. Random dance,
singing, and acting on Sometimes, Britney Spears.
- I got the Overall Best Participant award by the BSMM officers. LOL. Didnt expect it
at all!
- I emcee for the Majlis Perasmian BR of KTHO.
- In charge of Technical Department

2. Debate - Learnt to make TONS of friends outside education fac/PERKEB/college! :D
- Learnt to speak up. although I SOMEHOW MISSED A LOT OF TRAINING. urgh.
- I just dont get why I have the desire to stay put when I can't even attend most
- Joined Debate VC-Cup Tournament

3. College's Activities - Convo week Business stuff.
- Pantun Competition
- Help in Bakti Siswa
- Pengarah for Lateral Thinking
- Help in MAP under Protocol
- Emcee during MMP
- Drama team got 3rd place in Inter-college Drama Competition

4. PERKEB - First time worship lead in PERKEB, on 15 Oct 2009.
- My team's performance during F.O.C got number 1! lol.
- Leading the Publicity department for MK 2010.
- Meet a lot of great people!

5. Faculty - Joined Pantun Competition
- Have awesome bunch of classmates.

9 out of 10 are my first time doing them. :D But ALL glory to Him who brought all these to make me grow, stronger. Thank Him for His grace and joy throughout the DOWNS n ups. lol. :D He's forever awesome.

Spilling Out of Words,
Romans 8:26-28 says,

"And the Holy Spirit helps us in our weakness.
For example, we don't know what God wants us to pray for.
But the Holy Spirit prays for us
with groanings that cannot be expressed in words.
And the Father who know all hearts knows what the Spirit is saying,
for the Spirit pleads for us believers in harmony with God's own will.
And we know that God causes everything to work together
for the good of those who love God
and are called according to his purpose for them."

Sunday, September 13, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Political parties and Alcohol

I couldn't grasp the ideas of PAS wanting to ban-or-thinking-of-any-related-words-to-banning liquor in Pakatan places...

why can't they leave it be? People have been drinking and NONE made noises bout it since forever. Why can't they focus more on the MORE important issues like helping the poor or give education to people? Liquor is not the BIG issue here. Just because Muslims have the special rights 153, which I respect, THAT doesn't mean you leaders can be so extremist about it, be so overrated about it.


Why focus on minor things? Just because the Muslims might be tempted by liquor, that doesn't mean they can't face that? A person who is of faith have faith that they will run the race of faith diligently. Doesn't all religions face temptations? But DO YOU see any of them go and propose any ideas to ban all the temptations? No right? My my... If all men were to be tempted by the pornography, tempted by electronic goods, EVEN BY WOMAN, tell me, are YOU going to ban those things? :) THINK WISELY. Are not all worldly things are forms of temptations if you didn't watch out for your eyes? :)

So think again, dear politicians,
some things are just minor,
why waste time?

Live in respect,
Choose unity at all times.
That is the story.

Spilling Out of Words,

Thursday, August 27, 2009

Lesson - Excel 2007

Hello All, today class is all about creating graphs, columns, rows and most importantly, the students' results.
I tried my best to do what it can for the whole thing. Hopefully I can score this class better. :)

Spilling Out of Words,

Spelling Out Life... With A Story

She glares at the her dress
beautifully tailor-made for her
beaded, sequined, all white and sure, it is perfect.

yet there are beads starting to wet the bed
resting quietly
sobbing peacefully

could have things gone wrong for her?
could have things turned out fine if he didn't left?
could have things changed if we are married years before?

emptiness dwells within her heart's core
sorrow covers the joy of blissful thoughts
death succumbs to her fiance's life
then, there was no more.

Tuesday, August 25, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Questions

If I were to have such great family,
why would I be so dumb to ruin it?

If I were to have such loving boyfriend,
why do I even want to be so jealous of him being with others or quarrel daily?

If I were to have no relationship at all,
why do I crave for a touch?

If I were to do badly in my tests,
why do I want to die?

If I were to volunteer in doing somethings,
why does she have to give me that denial stare?

If I were given a chance to be good,
why do I keep on messing things up?


Spilling out of Words,

Thursday, August 20, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Pantun!

Never have I join a BM poem recitation competition before.
But yesterday, I joined it.
Surprisingly, it was funny.
My team consists of Ma, Wana and I.
We were late in replying the poems, I was giving facts and complicated questions.
at least we got 220?
Meanwhile the rest gotten 250 above.


we lost. badly.

Spilling Out of Words,

Spelling Out Life.... With The Truth

by Nicole Nordeman
We rode into town the other day
Just me and my daddy
He said I'd finally reached that age
And I could ride next to him on a horse
That of course was not quite as wide

We heard a crowd of people shouting
And so we stopped to find out why
And there was that man that my dad said he loved
But today there was fear in his eyes

So I said daddy why are they screaming
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why is he dressed in that bright purple robe?
I'll bet that crown hurts him more then he shows
Daddy please can't you do something?
He looks as though he's gonna cry
You said he was stronger then all of those guys
Daddy please tell me why?
Why does everyone want him to die?

Later that day the sky grew cloudy
And daddy said I should go inside
Somehow he knew things would get stormy
Boy was he right
But I could not keep from wondering
If there was something he had to hide
So after he left I had to find out
I was not afraid of getting lost
So I followed the crowds
To a hill where I knew men had been killed
And I heard a voice come from the cross

And it said father why are they screaming?
Why are the faces of some of them beaming?
Why are they casting their lots for my clothes?
This crown of thorns hurts me more then it shows
Father please can't you do something?
I know that you must hear my cry's
I thought I could handle a cross of this size
Father remind me why?
Why does everyone want me to die?
When will I understand why?

My precious son
I hear them screaming
I'm watching the face of the enemy beaming
But soon I will clothe you in robes of my own
Jesus this hurts me much more then you know
But this dark hour
I must do nothing
Though I've heard your unbearable cries
The power in your blood
Destroys all of the lies
Soon you'll see past their unmerciful lies
Look there below
See the child
Trembling by her father's side
Now I can tell you why
She is why you must die

At times, we think of the truth, WHAT IS THE TRUTH? He said, He is the way, the truth and the life. He said, for those whosoever believe in Him, SHALL NOT perish but have eternal life. He said, Leave behind your past and come and take up the cross and He will be with you, in you and next to you forever. He said, Just come to me and I will make you My children. He said, nothing is required of you but your heart. He is God, He is Jesus, He is Holy Spirit. He led a blameless life, He led a life to the cross and He loved and He died for you and me. We who are nothing yet He chose to die for us. Why is it hard for many to grasp that Only Truth? Its too perfect doesn't it? It's too easy, isn't it? Maybe it just is, ever wonder that? He really is The Only way. He said so, in the Bible. So What's your choice? A life without Him or a life of abundance with Him? He promised that we are His children. How cool is that? :) How great is He? Unexplainable. :)

Be blessed.

Spilling Out Words,

Wednesday, August 19, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Working(part time)!

Working part time as the "salesperson" with the Fery Sabak Studio
for UKM 2009 CONVOCATION week.
I had fun!
Met A LOT of people! Made some sales. Made friends a lot!
Love it!


sitting, wearing black is the Boss. LOL. He's so nice and very persuasive.

pretty much fun la this week. :)

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Funny Blog

The First friend I find amusing at first sight.
I don't understand him.
FUNNY is what i can call him.
The way he thinks is just different.
He just made me laugh the whole way through,
even if I just met him yesterday.
He's different.
People may find him weird or lunatic through his writings
but for me, he's just funny. hilarious person.

*tengah tahan ketawa in the library now - ada orang ba now*


love his blog.

Check him out Here.

Wednesday, August 5, 2009

Operating System

Operating System by Joy Gracia. With the reference from C++ textbooks and slides. I've compiled it for easy reference.

Tuesday, August 4, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Sales and Marketing

Never have I thought of joining any business plan or some sorts EVER
but God is SOOOOOO great that He placed me in this field!
Call me crazy, call me foolish,
but HELLO, I never handle fussy people, receipts and tons of money before...
New experience again this Mid August...
Convocation Photo Studio Registration.
with komisen(how to spell it in English again?) of course hahaahahah.
Will be working under Fery Sabak Studio.


Spilling out of words,

Monday, August 3, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Blood Donations!

Blood Donation 101:

1. When it's time for needle to be poke in your blood, LOOK AWAY.
2. Call your friends/ talk to your friends when you are being poked with needle.
3. DO NOT look when the HUGE needle is reaching your arm.
4. Continue to blabber/ talk nonsense until the needle is already in your arm.
5. Play with something, preferably your phone, when you are "giving away" your blood.
6. Have fun and ignore the blood that is flowing out of your veins.
7. LOOK AWAY when nurses are next to you when she wants to take out the needle.
8. Continue to play with your phone for another 15mins, after needle is out.
9. Walk to a table with tons of food after the donation.
10. Eat the free food and you can even ask for more. Not to forget, FREE CERT!


Anyway, I had my FIRST blood donation drive today!
It was undeniably petrified by the fact that a HUGE(!!) needle is going to be poked in my arm!
After all the registration had gone well, I became thrilled over it!
*scary wei*
I lied down on the recliner, pretty much anxious throughout the whole process...
So I decided to use Luke's phone to call Florence Lim.
I talked to her and complained to her how agitated I was the whole way.... LOL

so i press my palm uncontrollably,
playing with Luke's phone until a nurse came.
Without knowing anything, the blood pack is full!
Less than 10mins! :D
At that very moment, I thought I was going to fill in another pack,
which I find it not a big deal la.
But to my disappointment, they TOOK the freaking needle out.
saying its done.
but owh well, it was a nice experience to give away my blood.
was hoping it to be longer. HAHAHAHAHA

A shot of anxiety and laughter before the game began!

Photo is courtesy of Luke and Qilah

glad to have them around! :)

Spilling out of words,

Sunday, August 2, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Crazy Monkeys

these species are scary. never ever think about going near them unless your an animal lover.

Secured in my own comfy room
yet I chose to walk outside to Kolej Antarabangsa Ibu Zain.
Few steps up the long winding staircases,
grasping for air to fill my lungs is what I needed most.
But guess what,
S are there!

GILA I tell you...
I wanted to scream but it was the boy's dorm in front of me.
Shivering, adrenaline pumping is what i feel at that time.
Nowhere to go!
Only God knows how scary these crazy animals are.
Nowhere to go!
2 monkeys are running towards me!
Nowhere to go!
ahh... yes. The boy's dorm.
Hold a piece of brick and wave it around to scare off the monkeys.
Anyway, i crawled in the boys' dorm.
Walked away to the big roads...

the end.

I, Joy Gracia Liso, am officially scared of monkeys.

Spilling our of words,

Spelling Out Life... With Tears

Being at home is not my cry.
Being at university is my longing.
Being away from them means freedom.
Being away from them means listening to pain from afar.

I couldn't help but to break down in church just now.
I couldnt help but to ask for prayer.
I couldn't do anything but to cry all these emotions out.
Overwhelming is what i feel.

and I thank you for the prayers and support.
I thank you for the hugs and pats and laughter you gave.

Spilling Out of Words,

Spelling Out Life... With Differences

Went to PERKEB last thursday,
I couldn't grasp the fact there's a difference between
Commitment and Surrender.
Pastor shared how a man can give great commitment toward something but
it is greater for a man to surrender his whole being for God to do something.
Most times, we are obliged to follow what is instructed for us.
Most times, we are to do things in order for Him to look at us worthy of His presence.
Most times, we do good to people just to let Him know we are good.
Most times, we are instructed to follow all rules in order to pay for our sins.
But little did we know, He paid all the yoke of slavery when He died at the cross.
A perfect man, the perfect life, the sinless man, the perfect love, the perfect king.
He who chose to die on the Cross for everyone.
"Yet not mine but Your will be done", He cried.
He rose victoriously after the third day.
A history was made and yet, He still reigns for even thousands of years.
A faith to believe He is God is what it takes for each one to have eternal life.
A faith to believe that Jesus died for all.
A faith to believe that He is alive.
That faith gives differences between Commitment and Surrender.
No good deed is needed, no act of gratitude, no perfection is wanted
nothing is required, but only your willingness to surrender your past
and take up the cross and follow Him.
that's all.
that is what it takes to inherit His kingdom above.
that's all.

beautiful is He.

Spilling out of Words,

Spelling Out Life... With Futsal!

A new place, a new game.
Still missing Ultimate Disc most.
Thanks to the guys for dragging me along in this new game.
Patience is what all have, joy is what all received.

*grin* Its an inside joke to be enjoyed for as long futsal and Yours Trully are together.

Spilling out of words,

Sunday, July 26, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Debate's OVER!

25th-26th July 2009
Another adventure
Another Experience!


Anyway, my team KTHO1's score was 2-2.
Won to Lawyers and Science students *yes!!!*
Lost to two teams from KTSN-- Medic students *booooo*

Whereas KTHO2 lost all 4 rounds.
they did well tho! :)

It was an adventure. Indeed!
18 motions. 36 stances. 288 points.
but how many did we only use?
4 motions, 8 stances, 64 points + TONS of papers
*what a waste*

Anyway, I'm proud that I took the challenge.
It was 2 weeks of torture and that close to tearing!
but it was certainly a fun thing to do.
Although I will never option to do it again.

Spilling out of words,

Thursday, July 23, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Teacher's Day Carnival

Hey.. Hey.. Teacher's Day Carnival was fun. Although I stayed back until 11.30pm from 9am... :D

1. I did recite my poem. Edited by Afiq-ah and WanSyazza. Thank you for the support! :D

2. Kooku said "DAAAMAAAIIIII" during his poem reciting.. LOL. Oh OH! "Satu.. Satu dalam sejuta.."

3. Farahdiana sang a song BEAUTIFULLY!!! *her new fan* The only TESL that made through the Finals.

4. Reza sang Yesterday. Selamba only him.. Funny!

5. Luke sang Let It Be. LOL. He sang all out of tune but I LOVED IT!

6. Pian played the guitar gracefully! :D He played during my poem reciting time. It was great! :D

7. Hasif went "Joy, can you dont do your sad puppy face? I had enough on my mind..." LOL LOL LOL!!!

8. Ina was being great yesterday! She was being supportive the whole way through... Couldn't ask for more.

9. Oh oh!! It was Chia's birthday yesterday too! We all sang her a birthday song for most of the days. *Grinning*

10. Not forgetting, we(farahdiana, Jenna, Pian, Hidayat and Alven on the guitar) sang "More Than Words" to a lecturer and we got RM5 for it. I mean Rm5 for the whole thing. LOL.

11. We LITERALLY cheered REALLLLY loud for every TESL performances and during prize-giving ceremony.

that was all that is yesterday. :) love it!

Spilling out of Love,

Tuesday, July 21, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With My Very Own Sajak

Masing masing mengejar mimpi
Mimpi kejayaan di kelak hari
Siapakah yang tetap teguh berdiri
Gurulah yang memberi erti

Laksana kubu mengelilingi kami,
Kuat rasanya.
Seperti noktah mengakhiri ayat,
sempurna yang diberinya.
Laksana perisai membantu kami,
Selamat rasanya.
Tanggungjawab itulah milik guru.

Ku lihatnya menangis gembira
Ku lihatnya mengerut muka
Ku lihatnya ketawa selamba
begitulah kenangan aku terhadap guru tercinta

Dengan lelah peluhnya,
kami menjadi pengganti pemimpin
Dengan titisan air matanya,
kami mampu mencapai dunia.
Dengan kasih sayangnya,
kami ucapkan "Kami hargai semua".
Tanggungjawab itulah milik kami sekarang.

Seruan kami
sebagai anak bangsamu,
Janganlah putus asa terhadap kami
Janganlah cepat mengalah!
Kekalkan semangat waja itu
Kekalkan impian tuk melihat kami membangun membesar
Langsung tak sia-sia taburan benihmu
Langsung tak sia-sia pengajaranmu
Langsung tak sia-sia kasih sayangmu
kerana kami tetap hargai semua.
Tanggungjawab itulah milik kami sekarang.

this is a poem for all teachers in the world. Enjoy!

Spilling out of words,

Sunday, July 19, 2009

Spelling Out Life... With Sajak!

I'm going to take up another challenge this week.

Yes. You are right.

Come and watch me! HAHAHAHAH..
22nd July 2009
Faculty of Education

Spelling Out Life... With Debate

Guess what, or most probably all of you have known that I'm officially the College Tun Hussein Onn's debater. *SHRIEK*

Don't ask me how.
It reminds of to NEVER BE SO FRIENDLY TO PEOPLE ALL THE TIME cause it will lead you to something new and something challenging.

Neneway... Vice-Chancellor Cup Debate Competition is next Saturday and Sunday. I think this is my first time debating. This also the first time I use my brains a lot in 3 months. HAHA. Why, you might asked? I have 18 motions to think about, in preparation for both parties, for points to win! :) He brought me this far, I may wail and drool all the way but I will go through this. I must!

Spilling Out of Words,