Thursday, March 31, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with Banning dances

after reading from here:

I think religious leaders in Malaysia should have a monthly gathering just to clear the air on what is good for the Muslims to do and what cant be done. It's rather embarrassing if extremists are on the bar of unity-hatred box.


Poco-poco is not written in the Bible.

So before you extremists start to ban everything and make every Malays be pissed at the Christians for all these banning processes, please, I beg you to READ the Bible! PLEASE! Before you start to pass stupid irrelevant judgement on the Christians, please read the Bible. Google it in or

Funny stuff. Indeed. :)

Sunday, March 27, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with Cinderella Dream

she walks through in a cave,
she saw two dresses and she had the instruction of wearing the blue dress,
to her surprise, she saw beautiful blue gems appearing before her! :)
she follows the blue gems trail in that cave that lead her to happiness.

when she wakes up from her nap,
she saw the possibilities of trusting the blue gems around her.

yet, when she fell asleep the second time,
she dreamt of the same cave again,
this time, the same instruction appeared, but she took the red dress.
She was hoping to see the blue gems to lead her out again,
but to her dismay, she was wrong.
the blue gems turned into burning red shiny spikes and she grew scared!
she followed it and it led her to destruction.

the angels at the end questioned her, "have I not asked you to listen? come now, wake up and learn."
She woke up startled.

and I realized I woke up too.

Spelling Out Life... with Day 1 again

Humble yourself under the Mighty power of God
and at the right time, He will lift you up in honor.

Learning. Man, this is tough. I never knew I'd be as irritated as now. Irritated in the manner of myself. macam berhenti merokok only. LOL. Imagine you're used to one person and there u go, you shut them off. LORD, I'M SAD. It's a good thing that I'm feeling this way, to show how much I need to change in certain things = my characters in viewing things.

I'll make it through this. Amen.

words of wisdom are : wait. just wait.


i can. :)

Lord, i'm humbling. ahhahahaaahahah.

= still in childish mode.

cane me.

Spelling Out Life... with damn relationships

friendships are hard to keep. it's just a willing heart to go the distance to listen to the most shallow part of the other person's shallowest phase in life. that's all.

girl, it's okay. it's just a transition period. just love me as how you equally love those that are around you. I'm shallow. i know.

one thing after another. joy + relationships = never ending dramas. !@$!@#$%^@#~(%(*%^

friends after friends leaving.

but I wont, not on you.

again, I'm shallow. i'm sorry.

no, this post is not about him. the end.

Spelling Out Life... With Day 1

God reminded me of His promise and I know well of this should be done long time ago. I feel stupid for putting myself in these shoes. Well, better start now then to regret after. Dear Lord, carry us well. :)

day 1: the Lord is my shepherd. Instruction is not easy but I'll stick to it.. A month of finding back the LOVE from up above, this will determine the course of journey yet who will gain glory? Not me nor him, indeed I'll give it back to our Lord Jesus Christ.

thank Him for the love and support from the leaders and elders. Thank Him for their concern. A way for wisdom is to heed the words of the elders and I shall do it..

Spelling Out Life... with Time Out

time out. Version 2.

by the end of this, we're going to be stronger.
Cause that is the decision I'm going to make soon after.
I know this time, He is above us and in us.


Saturday, March 26, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with Questions 3

K la. I Give up.

If the godly relationship is something that would have every leaders' approvals, then what I have now is not up to that level yet.

If my relationship isn't bringing anyone from my side any good, from the way people perceive me and all, I shall take a huge step backward to think this through.

In Jesus name,


Its hilarious how my first post makes myself sound like a child, instead of a mature person. foolish me. :D well, we gotta learn

Spelling Out Life... with Questions 2

okay. I just say all those before coz I cant digest.

Now, I thank God for all the advices. and I shall sip it in.

the bible says, take heed of your elders' words.

I'm thinking twice now.

Spelling Out Life... With Questions

I come to learn that I make people question my capabilities in handling relationships right now.

To many, in a relationship, one should:

1. be serious in the relationship
2. take her/his time
3. not jump straight into it
4. have a clear mind
5. not follow feelings much
6. be sure of oneself

etc etc.

That pressures me.

Being 21, flamboyant, outgoing, friendly, happy-go-lucky kind of girl, it's not a fun thing to have people's perceptions of "what a relationship should be" tie around my neck. Yes, I honour the conventional traditional way of courtship. But, I dont know la, I have my own perception of what I see my relationship be, you know.

For me, the way I see relationship is that
1. I inform/tell everyone I love about him, vice versa
2. I won't go PDA (Public Display of Affection) around.
3. I won't do what is not right to me or make him do whatever that is not right before our God.
4. I grow with him and vice versa.
5. I update people about our current walk in life.
6. My studies or other commitments are not affected by it.
7. I let him meet everyone that is important to me and vice versa.

I don't know la. Honestly, I feel like I cant fit in people's perception right now and I'm technically going up against current. It's pressuring ba. People expect me to learn from my past and they expect me to learn REALLY well. Now, many are questioning the way I carry myself with my past words, whether "will joy keep her words as she promised?" or "will she repeat the same mistake again and fall?". Everyone has their eyes on me, wanting me to succeed until the point where I begin to develop this huge fear that I will fail them one day.

How I feel right now?
1. I wanna cry for sharing the news with people about him. Although I do want people to know his existence.
2. I wanna cry because I'm pressured about "will this next step I take is a bad one? will they look down on me if it's a mistake?"
3. I wanna cry because I'm capable of failing this current relationship one day and everyone is going to give me that head shakes again.
4. I wanna cry because now, I'm beginning to develop a sense of faith in this one and people are telling me to back off for now.
5. I wanna cry because their perceptions are making me doubtful of myself. I cant do this, right???
6. I feel stupid. I don't know the manual book for dating but all I know I'm honouring myself before God and him before Him. Somehow it's not enough to make people have a little faith in me in this whole thing.

My sister Grace just opened up my eyes. she kept on emphasizing that "Joy, you are still young. It's okay if you make mistake. It's part of life. If you're happy now, then good la. Better than being scared in taking nothing at all the whole time. Don't stress out about your relationship and what others perceive you. You will learn through the process la. Relax jak la. biar jak mereka habis air liur." HAHAHAHAHA..

so begitu la perasaan saya sekarang. tension.

Tuesday, March 22, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with The Article 11

Article number: 11

(1)Every person has the right to profess and practice his religion and, subject to Clause (4), to propagate it.
(2) No person shall be compelled to pay any tax the proceeds of which are specially allocated in whole or in part for the purposes of a religion other than his own.
(3) Every religious group has the right
(a) to manage its own religious affairs;
(b) to establish and maintain institutions for religious or charitable purposes; and
(c) to acquire and own property and hold and administer it in accordance with law.
(4) State law and in respect of the Federal Territories of Kuala Lumpur and Labuan, federal law may control or restrict the propagation of any religious doctrine or belief among persons professing the religion of Islam.
(5) This Article does not authorize any act contrary to any general law relating to public order, public health or morality

Spelling Out Life... with Current Issues

If stamping on bible is a standard procedure,
by all means, stamp all the religious books in Malaysia.
Quran is just for the Muslims, the Tipitaka for the Buddhist, the Veda for the Hindus.

Fair isn't it?

What is a standard procedure to the govt. anyway?
Is it standard for Malaysians to be bribed and got away with it?
Is it standard for Malaysians to close the Altantuya's case?
Is it standard for a student to scratch a teacher's car?
Is it standard for lecturers to come in late and care more about her Masters Students than her undergrads?
Is it standard for Malaysians to manipulate the citizens with so many promises?
Is it standard for Malaysians to close Teoh Beng Hock's case?
Is it standard for Malaysian to shoot a boy at his own agenda?
Is it standard for to have accusations upon accusations towards every political parties?
Is it standard for Malaysians to mock one another when status is jeopardized?
Is it standard for Malaysians to put a video of pornography publicly without the person's consent be let go?
Is it standard for Malaysians to say that it's karma for the Japanese and they deserved the tsunami because of WW2?
Is it standard for Malaysians to actually send help to the needy yet mock them at the same time?
Is it standard to send all the bright Malaysians to study overseas and let them grow there instead of here?
Is it standard to shut off Malaysians when they publicize about the truth on certain things?
Is it standard to have Malaysians misusing powers?
Is it standard to cover up lies with lies and kill or hurt those who actually knows the truth?

I just don't get it.
Why is it such standard to stamp on Bibles when the rest of the issues above carry more weight to the country? Why aren't the citizens' welfares be taken care off first before slandering the Christians? Yes I'm severely not satisfied for the Bible issue but I'm heartbroken because it's clearly shown how people care more about tiny stuff than big issues above. If this is the lifestyle of the (not) rich and (not) famous people, there goes the country.

Spelling Out Life... with Pranks

I pranked the wrong people the other day. Until now, she's not talking to me...


She was family and now, she's just a family's girlfriend.

So learnt my lesson, never to prank her ever again, in life. I thought she's one of those that have serious face but chillax type. =.=" sigh. She'll never forgive me for being like this.

But then again, I can't blame her, it's her serious character that surrounds her life. I should've told him not to tell her at the first place! geez.

Monday, March 14, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with a Dream

nightmares, what do you do when you had one?

Sigh. This morning, as I was praying, I was reminded of a nightmare I once had, around end of last year, to be exact... I questioned what good will it bring to me? I got scared and cried, so what good will it possibly bring?

I dreamt about my city or was it a city not of my own, being hit by a tsunami. It was a city. Yes, tsunami. I dreamt that I was stuck in a traffic jam on a hill and I ended up coming out of the car because it's not moving. I recalled my friends were with me and we ran all the way to the top of the hill! It wasn't a great thing to experience. I really felt as if I was there. But the weird thing was, it happened twice and I ran towards a different hill. Have you seen this one particular movie where it was about this president got shot but the whole thing is witnessed from different perspectives? It was exactly alike. Somehow I saw this tsunami happening twice but at a different angle when I saw it the second time.

Sigh. Lord, Lord, help me with the dreams you have planted in me. I don't get why. I really wish You can teach me.

Spelling Out Life... with My 21st!

When all the simple things I desired, God has blessed me with even more than I expected!


I had the family meal I longed for
(@ Village View Bangi)
I had the homecook food I craved for, NERNNY COOKED!!!!

- Thanks to the PERKEB people: Varrenni, Esther, Jared, Ben, Rofia, Rachel, Raymond, Nernny!-


I hung out with my new friends from SMK JLN REKO (the one behind the Shell Station after Philo). I had fun getting to know the heart of the Form3 girls personally. :)

They treated me with McFlurry!


Jared, Esther and Varreni surprised me in the car! :D
So much for going dating in Serdang huh, Jared? Hahahaha
SAME GOES TO REN: "Oh, I wanna go Hentian Kajang"
Esther: "I'm going back to Melaka la, use Kajang station"

These 3 crazy people had to endure ear blasting session the moment I saw GREEN TEA CHEESE CAKE!!!!!! hahaahahaha.. I wailed and laughed, of course. LOL! The session continued when Ren gave me my 2nd present for the day! :D BROS BOTTLE!!!


Went to Subang Square to eat in Sinbad Restaurant, the Arabian Food. :)
Played Murderer Game! :DD

-Thanks to: Sek Kuan, Isabel, Dev, Maggie, Edna, Jeremy, Darryl, Jan Hoe, Fea, Cher Linn, Jim.


The crying session happened when Taiko, Isa and Maggie
surprised me in the car! :DD

They gave me Secret Recipe's Chocolate Indulgence cake, a gorgeous Silver necklace and a beautiful card! :)

12 March 2011

Went to Times Square, KL for birthday shopping with Sharon, after 7pm.
Sharon got me Starbucks TRIPLE CHEESE something2. I couldn't recall.
I bought 2 pairs of shoes from NICHII for RM70!!!!!!!
a pair of heels and a pair of sandals.
Had Subway for dinner.

13 March 2011

I went to IKEA with Tim, Amy..... Very fun talking to them in the car!
ah, and not forgetting Ling too. Yes, he tagged along.
Tim and Amy treated me lunch of IKEA MEATBALLS AND DAIM CAKE!!!

The stupid part of the day, I pranked the wrong person until the whole Miri family clan were extremely pissed off. LOL. If you want to know what's the story about, ask me personally. LOL. I hope they don't read my blog though. Or else they say I'm not repenting from my pranking sins. :P

That's about it! :)

Thank You Lord for the great and awesome people that You've put in my life!

Bless them abundantly!

-I shall post photos the next round-

Thursday, March 10, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with Pre Wedding : Converse in Love

I name this post Converse in Love,
in a tribute to their matching clothes, especially shoes!
This is my first time shooting a couple, not only that they were wearing CONVERSE SNEAKERS!
So yes, Cute isn't it? Converse in Love.
Which also means, being in love/speaking of love/speak in love etc etc.
Here you go, here's a post of my journey of a voluntary mission which turns blessed!

Pre-wedding Sneaker-Peeker

I tell you, they are fun!

the attempt of her carrying him.
Mission failed. HAHAAHAHAA.
You should have seen him!!! He really did jumped on her back. HAHAHAHAHA..

Nick shot from another angle, I tried this one. :)

of all, this is my favourite, coz of their emotions!


Aren't they awesome?? The couple, I mean! Hahahaha..
I shall present to you Julia and Handoko! :D
going to be married in June, i think,

ps: Dont you think she looks like Agnes Monica? HAHAHAHAHAHAH

Wednesday, March 9, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with Day 3


3 more days.

DAY 4 was fun! :D

yesterday was the first time I shot alongside Nick for a pre-wedding shooting. On top of that, that's my first time shooting a couple since 2007 AAAANNNDDDD that's my first time shooting an international couple! They are from Indonesia. :D Handoko & his lovely lovely fiance, Julia! :) They are really awesome. AANNNNNNNDDDD that's my first time DRIVING TO AND FRO Melaka-KL! OMGGGG.... so tiring!!!!

I really am blessed by the couple ba... really nice couple!!!!

Wanna know their story in short?

Hans said "Well, for 2 years I've been with her, she changed me. I change her. for the better, characters, I mean and that's how I know she's the one.." and Julia said something like "for 2 years, we've been through a lot, we worked it out, we've been better and that's how I know."


Here you go Hans and Julia, your love story, that has blessed me. :) May the good Lord blesses you in your marriage. :) Keep growing in Him and bless others as how you have blessed me! :)


I don't know what I want for birthday, I just want homecook meals. :( I'm sad. I want homecook food.

Friday, March 4, 2011

Spelling Out Life... With 8 days

Can I have a Bro's 600ml or 500ml water bottle for a birthday gift? Hahahahaha. I don't have a decent water bottle since 2008. LOL. So I'd so the very appreciate it if I have one? LOLLL... :D

What do I want for birthday, for real?
1. Friends to celebrate it with.
2. To be able to spend time with a family.
3. To have a key pendant! (I just found out that people give keys to the person who is celebrating 21st birthday and I find it cool. I'm suddenly excited for it! LOL.)
4. To have a green tea cheese birthday cake. which I find it hard to find.. :(
5. go SS2 Murni and try their spaghetti meatball!!!!!! :DDD

I just realized all I need is people and food to make me happy. :) Nothing big.

Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!! yesterday was awesomely memorable but soul-shooting at the same time. :) Thank God for it.


I'm going to be bolder now. Amen.

Wednesday, March 2, 2011

Spelling Out Life... with 10.5 Days

Malaysians are born extremely smart but raised with stupidity under the government's ruling.

Oh, the best part, the government wants all to be dumb followers with all the restricting rules here and there but still smart enough to make the country move 1 step ahead instead of 100steps ahead.

At one point, I've been having visions of this country not in a good shape, and yes, I've already foreseen the country is under his ruling, just waiting for the day for her to burn. figuratively of course.

Thank you, country. :)

Spelling Out Life... with 10 Days

Day 10-more-to-go

God says to me "not all bad things that happened bring more harm instead it will cause you to pray more and seek Me more."

So it's pretty obvious how my maths is terrible, I can't even count my own countdown. HAHAHA.

All Glory to Him in the highest.

I pray that all you who read will be blessed. (NOT CAUSE OF MY FAILING MATHS)

"The Lord wants your heart. He wants to bless you with an everlasting joy, peace, security and love in Him. He loves you more than anyone could possibly imagine! He made you to bless your family, friends and me! He made you live this far to let you know that He is in control, He never fails. He may answer certain issues rather slow but it is never too late. He is molding everyone, including you! yes you! to work in His kingdom. What joy or peace can the world possibly give or even last for that matters, if you still feel empty in the inside after seeking for so long? None can compare to His own Spirit to dwell in you! You are His child and You always will... But, to know Him is to accept his only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, into your life as your personal Lord and Savior. He is the way, the truth and the life, no one can go through the father unless through Him. :) Don't take too long to justify your reasons for not having Him this soon. This prize is too big to be justified to begin with anyway! :) I know this sounds to religion-ish, but I once had the same thought too but God changed my mind when I began to take the leap of faith! :) Live because He first live! :)"

I love you! :)