Spelling Out Life... with 10 Days

Day 10-more-to-go

God says to me "not all bad things that happened bring more harm instead it will cause you to pray more and seek Me more."

So it's pretty obvious how my maths is terrible, I can't even count my own countdown. HAHAHA.

All Glory to Him in the highest.

I pray that all you who read will be blessed. (NOT CAUSE OF MY FAILING MATHS)

"The Lord wants your heart. He wants to bless you with an everlasting joy, peace, security and love in Him. He loves you more than anyone could possibly imagine! He made you to bless your family, friends and me! He made you live this far to let you know that He is in control, He never fails. He may answer certain issues rather slow but it is never too late. He is molding everyone, including you! yes you! to work in His kingdom. What joy or peace can the world possibly give or even last for that matters, if you still feel empty in the inside after seeking for so long? None can compare to His own Spirit to dwell in you! You are His child and You always will... But, to know Him is to accept his only begotten Son, Jesus Christ, into your life as your personal Lord and Savior. He is the way, the truth and the life, no one can go through the father unless through Him. :) Don't take too long to justify your reasons for not having Him this soon. This prize is too big to be justified to begin with anyway! :) I know this sounds to religion-ish, but I once had the same thought too but God changed my mind when I began to take the leap of faith! :) Live because He first live! :)"

I love you! :)

Spelling Out Life... with Day 19 - 1

Why do I have the Lord Jesus Christ in my life? Let's hear out my story with Him alongside me! It's nothing big but it has been abundant...

Just a brief introduction, I come from a Christian family, go to church since baby yet I was empty, direction-less, lost and dead. I can be happy but when the sun sets, I have nothing to look forward to, except for the excitement I get in schools, from friends etc. I always find my journey ahead a little blurry, I don't know what I can do with my life. I am the girl with a very short span of contentment. I get bored easily. I'm indecisive, compulsive and all the -sive adjectives that one could possibly as for. Earlier in 2005, I lied on bed, telling God almost everyday. "God, if You are real, please change my life around. I'm bored! Is there more to life than this? Please make Yourself real to me." :D It was then end of 2005 when everything started to go haywire! In 2006, I can possibly tell you I was a wreck. My family started to torn apart from one another although my social life started to build up (in a good manner ofcoz: President/vice president/prefects etc). My family nearly got into a divorce, everybody hated everybody, I was being interrogated for the whole thing! But of course, I was the first to know yet I said nothing in order to not worsen things! I nearly committed suicide, I hurt myself, I became more attention-seeking person than ever, I had no one to speak to about it. It just suck to be in between everybody and tried to laugh it off as the dawn breaks. "God, why do you make me suffer everyday? You said You have better plans for me, why am I going through this? You are nothing. I am nothing." Yet, day by day, I complained to Him alone... I just went back to my house (not home), I started to talk to Him! I didn't care if He was hurt or happy, I just tell Him what I was going through! More like "whatever la. You listen. Listen good" kinda mode. hahahahha.. You know what made me grew closer to my Lord? His words. As much as I keep on complaining about my stupid dead life, I still remember almost every night, I would recite a whole paragraph and debate with myself or just savouring everything that He said on my bed. His words of comfort, joy and grace keep on filling in my life. He was faithful to all the prophets in the Bible. He was still faithful from the way He approached me through my friends and church members. I knew right then, I had Him in my heart... I knew right then, I have something to live for and I'm alive! I invited Him into my heart and received Him as my personal Lord and Saviour. Towards the end of 2006, I grew closer to God though my family was still breaking up at that time. :) God provided me the Lim family for replacing my need of family love, God provided me awesome experiences in school and I was living for Him! 2007 wasn't any better, things got worser! Hahahaha. But I had this thought that keep me sane "God is faithful. If He is faithful like He claims Himself to be, He'll make me go through this safely. I just need more patience to see this through..." and it did come to pass. My family got back together slowly in His grace and love in 2008.. :) I couldn't believe that it would be that soon! Usually people wanting to get divorce, it will happen wan, but Haha! after 2 years, things started to patch up! :D So yea. Everyday until today, I look forward to look on my ceiling after I wake up, to say "Good morning God!" coz He told me "My mercies are new every morning." God has been carrying me through well, safe and abundantly. I don't hope for anything else but to have an abundant life through Him who made me His child. He made me who I am today. "Joy, you are not a mistake so go and live up to the calling I have placed in you." and yes, I shall live up, live with joy, grace and full of His love for me! I know I'm different because He lives in me. When others say I'm different when they look at me, I know, that is His works in my life that make me one! HAHAHAH.. I'm not going to boast that this whole thing is me, coz it's not! Now, I can proudly say I know my calling, my direction in life, I know I'm living everyday, I know His voice and I don't feel dead anymore! How great is the God I'm serving! He IS still faithful! oh, you can read about his faithfulness in my life under the tag "faith" or "God" and yes, that is just the tiny side of His every BIG BIG BIG love me. :)

That's about my story with my DADDY GOD. He's a great dad and I couldn't imagine myself to not live without the FATHER that makes me alive...

Isaiah 9:6-7:

For to us a child is born,

to us a son is given,

and the government will be on his shoulders.

And he will be called

Wonderful Counselor, Mighty God,

Everlasting Father, Prince of Peace.

⁷ Of the greatness of his government and peace

there will be no end.

Amen to all the great things and great understanding that are to come.

rev 3:20 Here I am! I stand at the door and knock. If anyone hears my voice and opens the door, I will come in and eat with him, and he with me.

Have you open up your heart to Him yet? You can have the same lively-ness I have, if you are willing to open up to Him. :) He never fails. He conquered death, He loves you and I, and what more can you possibly ask for? :) He's an awesome daddy! HUGS dad! :)

xoxo,

Joy - The happiness He placed in me.

Gracia (Spanish: Grace/thanksgiving) - Full of thanksgiving and grace that I'm having.

Liso (Spanish: Smooth/straight) -The straight truth that I'm holding on.

Spelling out Life... with Happiness

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I'm happy now!



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10things to be thankful for?



1. Through Jesus, I'm able to have the courage to speak nicely to my family and I LOVE THEM now and forever! Never knew I could feel that way after few years of grudges. LOL..



2. Through Him, I'm living a life that is full of correction yet full of love! Nothing can beat that!



3. Through Him, I'm able to bless my juniors in my colleges with whatever I have. Debate! Debate! Debate! BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHhaaa.. May God bless each one of them! They are awesome bunch of FRIENDS!





4. Through Him, I'm able to write this! Lol.





5. Through Him, I'm able to run activities in my college smoothly and with grace! Who knew I'm still sane after a month of running here and there! LOL~





6. Through Him, my relationship with Cedric is growing. It may be at a SUPER EXTREMELY SLOWWWWWWWWWW pace, I know I'm growing with Ced, either personally growing and growing as a couple. :) God bless his love for me. :)





7. Through Him, my days are really meaningful and crazy! :) Day by day, He continuously show me grace and mercy and LOVE and and and FAITHFULNESS!!!! Imagine, He blessed me with finance even when I didnt ask for it! LOLL~~~





8. Through Him, my sucky unavoidable situation becomes bearable daily. LOL. Seriously! Life is challenging weiiii~~ I have a friend who is not a friend now and that sucks but He is giving me the joy to go through it! With His strength, I AM ABLE. :)





9. Through Him, I have AWESOME friends and leaders to watch over me! Just when I thought I wanted to be alone, He brings me fellowship that builds me up! :D





10. Through Him, I live because He lives. :)







xoxo,

thank you daddy God! you're the BEST Dad anyone can ask for. Love your daughter!

Spelling out Life... with Pornography

Let's watch one!

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No Kidding!

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*gasp*

Perhaps that is what we youth people always go through nowadays, where we are encouraged to explore sexual thoughts and sexual being, behind close doors or so. For most, "it's okay" but not knowing that you are on your way to self-condemnation at later years. It may not be easy with our hormones at its raging stage etc, however, it's a choice you want to make la. I'm not here to condemn you and all.

Want to know why? I've been there and sometimes i do fall into this temptation, in which I'm not proud of. I'm still learning from Jesus who is perfecting my will of resisting to porn and all. To be honest, before I knew Jesus, my life was just pretty much boring and meaningless. I turned to pornography when I was just 11? It got stuck to me for a few long years... TRUE! Those images haunt me so bad until they carried me far far far away from a life that Jesus had promised me. Those images haunt me and made me do things that is associated to it. I was being such stupid and shallow and indeed, dirty in mental-emotional wise. Ever since God showed me great love and more love through my Christian friends and leaders from church, I realized "hey! there's so much more to life than just porn/masturbation/sex!". And no, I've not sexed with anyone *thank God for that.. feeuuhh! * But, now that He's slowly molding me according to His ways, I can honestly and proudly say here in my world of blog life, I learnt to let go of pornography bit by bit, since the day I surrendered my life to He who made me in His love. I learnt to accept myself and learnt to love&respect opposite genders as brothers too! :) With Christ in my life, I learnt to love Him and love&live life more, and that, my friend, taught me to let go of pornography... :) It's not easy! It certainly not! Come on, its like smoking cigarette! How would you feel of changing after 6-7years of addiction! LOL... I can assure you that, but He never fails to lift my spirit up and encourage me through friends! He continuously shaped me by changing my mind and way of perceiving things etc...Gosh, those ENDLESS LOVE and PATIENT! Those are the best gift you can have from having Jesus in your life, period! Who on earth can love you more when you continously fail that person?? None but Jesus. "For God so LOVE the earth that He sent His one and only Son Jesus, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have ETERNAL LIFE" So yea, I can assure to you that I am still a sinner that is living in this world but I have assurance that every single day of my life, He's perfecting me to be like Him with His Spirit, despite of my daily failures. LOL.. What an awesome God I'm serving huh? :)

They say, YOU BECOME WHAT YOU SERVE and again, I'm proud to say, I love serving and loving the living God Jesus that made me great in ways that noone will ever see, even before I was created... :) I know I've changed completely because of Him and am still changing and I'm loving every moment of it!

ps: I know this is pretty much shameful thing to share on a blog, but ah well, if Jesus forgave me long time ago, so what is so bad about it? He carried me through. Being transparent to people around my new me is better than to hide my walk with Him...

OH, here are some verses that I want to bless you with:

John 3:17--For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him. :)

SO...

PORN ANYONE?

LOL!

Spelling Out Life... with Christmas

Merry Christmas Everyone!

It's the time of the year again!

Let me remind you again, it is NOT about santa!

(if you arrange it properly, it means satan)

It is about the birth of Jesus Christ, the ever Reigning Son of God,

who IS the founder of Christianity.

It may be fun to look at santa, bright lights, beautiful decor and reindeers, no doubt bout that.

But never lose sight who is the real reason for Christmas.

in order to do so,

let us do a simple math for each one of us to remember.

CHRISTMAS = CHRIST-a-MUST

lol.

It's NOT bout satan.

It's ABOUT Jesus.

:)

Merry Christmas again!

Spilling out of Joy!