Thursday, August 5, 2010

Spelling out Life... with Pornography



Let's watch one!

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No Kidding!

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Seriously?

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Maybe...







*gasp*







Perhaps that is what we youth people always go through nowadays, where we are encouraged to explore sexual thoughts and sexual being, behind close doors or so. For most, "it's okay" but not knowing that you are on your way to self-condemnation at later years. It may not be easy with our hormones at its raging stage etc, however, it's a choice you want to make la. I'm not here to condemn you and all.




Want to know why? I've been there and sometimes i do fall into this temptation, in which I'm not proud of. I'm still learning from Jesus who is perfecting my will of resisting to porn and all. To be honest, before I knew Jesus, my life was just pretty much boring and meaningless. I turned to pornography when I was just 11? It got stuck to me for a few long years... TRUE! Those images haunt me so bad until they carried me far far far away from a life that Jesus had promised me. Those images haunt me and made me do things that is associated to it. I was being such stupid and shallow and indeed, dirty in mental-emotional wise. Ever since God showed me great love and more love through my Christian friends and leaders from church, I realized "hey! there's so much more to life than just porn/masturbation/sex!". And no, I've not sexed with anyone *thank God for that.. feeuuhh! * But, now that He's slowly molding me according to His ways, I can honestly and proudly say here in my world of blog life, I learnt to let go of pornography bit by bit, since the day I surrendered my life to He who made me in His love. I learnt to accept myself and learnt to love&respect opposite genders as brothers too! :) With Christ in my life, I learnt to love Him and love&live life more, and that, my friend, taught me to let go of pornography... :) It's not easy! It certainly not! Come on, its like smoking cigarette! How would you feel of changing after 6-7years of addiction! LOL... I can assure you that, but He never fails to lift my spirit up and encourage me through friends! He continuously shaped me by changing my mind and way of perceiving things etc...Gosh, those ENDLESS LOVE and PATIENT! Those are the best gift you can have from having Jesus in your life, period! Who on earth can love you more when you continously fail that person?? None but Jesus. "For God so LOVE the earth that He sent His one and only Son Jesus, that whoever believes in Him shall not perish but have ETERNAL LIFE" So yea, I can assure to you that I am still a sinner that is living in this world but I have assurance that every single day of my life, He's perfecting me to be like Him with His Spirit, despite of my daily failures. LOL.. What an awesome God I'm serving huh? :)





They say, YOU BECOME WHAT YOU SERVE and again, I'm proud to say, I love serving and loving the living God Jesus that made me great in ways that noone will ever see, even before I was created... :) I know I've changed completely because of Him and am still changing and I'm loving every moment of it!





ps: I know this is pretty much shameful thing to share on a blog, but ah well, if Jesus forgave me long time ago, so what is so bad about it? He carried me through. Being transparent to people around my new me is better than to hide my walk with Him...



OH, here are some verses that I want to bless you with:



John 3:17--For God did not send His Son into the world to condemn the world, but to save the world through Him. :)














SO...


PORN ANYONE?


LOL!

1 comment:

  1. Joy. How brave and courageous of you! : ) You have a supporter here, I mean, in the sense of going thru what you went thru and living the every day battle of fighting it off.

    God's been gracious, if that's one thing I've learnt in the battle against porn. Of course, if I had had a choice to redo certain choices in my past, I would have, but I think what's important is I stick to making my future pleasing to Him.

    And also, making sure my kids are well informed. Part of my problem was not hearing enough from adults. And that's where a lot of curiousity started getting out of hand.

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