Spelling Out Life... with Take heart

I came across the song "Take Heart" by Hillsong on Youtube yesterday evening. The lyrics spoke to me heart and I was sobbing alone in my cubicle in the library! I honestly don't know of the hurt I've given to myself and to others, it's eating me up inside and I believe that the Lord is speaking to me about letting it go. But I'm not ready to trust again. I went in the game early and I lost. I lost in a big fight. Everyone said I'm not ready and I'm not capable to play the game and here I am, I'm not going to play the game anymore. I had enough of losing this game. I can't. I'm not strong and capable. and so be it.

All our troubles

And all our tears

God our hope

He has overcome

All our failure

And all our fear

God our love

He has overcome

All our heartache

And all our pain

God our healer

He has overcome

All our burdens

And all our shame

God our freedom

He has overcome

All our troubles

Though You did but I'm far from overcoming anything. not yet Lord. I'm too weak. 

Hold on to hope
And take courage again

I'll try to hope, I'll just hope on You but not on any of these people's plannings for me. I had enough, Lord. sigh.