Spelling out Life... with Overseas Stuff

*ranting mode*

Okay, I feel envious of those that are able to go overseas and study!!!!!
LOL. the fact that they are able to go venture around new places, see new faces, do new things, have different study style, and may even experience new things like snow etc etc, makes me a lil green on the eyes. LOL. SIGH. why can't I be sponsored by any institute or relatives like any of my friends?

Reasons? glad enough to entertain you...

#1 I'm not that smart to get straight As or near straight As to get sponsored by any institutes.
#2 the fact that i'm from an average family, I can't afford expensive universities internationally.
#3 the fact that i'm a mediocre in my studies or social life, I think i suit better in Malaysia cause of the lifestyle. sigh.

hahahahahahaahahahaha. *gila mode*

Kesian kan me? stuck here. they say the other side is greener than our side. or some sort like that. I think it's somewhat true in some sense la. Better quality in service, tougher exams, higher quality of exam level, good food etc etc... SIGH. I feel like complaining why i'm still stuck here. WHY. hahahahahahaa.. Yes, remind me of the 3 reasons again. xP

blablalalalalala..

*ranting mode ends*

Well, aside from the top 3 reasons, I think I know why I'm still back in Malaysia. :) God knows my character more than I. I know deep down I'll still have a huge spot of my country home in my heart. I know I'll miss malaysia a few months after being in such a super nicer way cooler country. I still remember when I was in Sydney for near 2 months, I was slightly bored coz there's no friends around, no friendly faces, tight on budget etc etc. I love the whole atmosphere but I sense of no homey-lovey thingling thing in my heart. heh. :) I'd love vacations overseas but anything longer than 2 weeks, I'll think about it? LOL. Yea, I love Malaysia. No matter how terrible it is in corruptions, how slow are the services, how terrible is the service but my families of hundreds and friends that are uncountable and the future that I'm longing for for Malaysia are keeping me safely tucked in the local ground... Perhaps, I may want to move to any parts of the Asean countries, one day. Say Phillippines? (is that a correct speeling?) I have this soft spot for the kids there for years now! heh. I might settle down there if I love it there. :) But of course, that has to depend on God's will. :)

*prayer mode*

Dear Lord, I pray that I'm able to go the Phillipine one day and serve you there for as long as you want me to. :) Oh, if it's Your will, please put the same vision in the heart of my loved ones and -the one- so that we can work this out in Your name. if not now, maybe later la, also can. take Your time. LOL!!! :) thank you Lord. :))))) In Jesus' name, amen. :) I love You God. :)

*manja mode*

xoxo.