Spelling Out Life... with My REAL Feelings

I finally find the perfect song for my feelings! LOL. like, not the Love Is Waiting type la. o yes, I do wait. but this one song, The Only Exception by Paramore, is like what I feel the whole time in my life. Things happened before in my life and towards the end, I think I'm on my way to believing something now, even if it takes years. :) Beautiful song. :) A song that speaks of my past and my present! period! I shall thank God for this creativity! :)

When I was younger

I saw my daddy cry

And curse at the wind

He broke his own heart

And I watched

As he tried to reassemble it

And my momma swore that

She would never let herself forget

And that was the day that I promised

I'd never sing of love

If it does not exist

But darling,

You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

You, are, the only exception

Maybe I know, somewhere

Deep in my soul

That love never lasts

And we've got to find other ways

To make it alone

Keep a straight face

And I've always lived like this

Keeping a comfortable, distance

And up until now

I had sworn to myself that I'm
Content with loneliness

Because none of it was ever worth the risk

Well, You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

I've got a tight grip on reality
But I can't
Let go of what's in front of me here
I know you're leaving
In the morning, when you wake up
Leave me with some kind of proof it's not a dream

Ohh---

You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception
You, are, the only exception

And I'm on my way to believing
Oh, And I'm on my way to believing

Lol. yea. Cedric's constant behaviour continuously making me fond of him daily. *shh* I'm not even sure if he reads my stuff here. HAHAHAHAHA. so I can talk crap bout him, if u want. LOL. anyway, he is the same old guy who does things repetitively (most of the times, daily) but I think that is what I needed most now... :) Everyday, he would just reaffirm me that "Hey, I'm here and we'll work things out together slowly. Don't worry k?", either thru actions or just encouraging words. :)

with constant prayers and supports from him and the whole clan behind us,

yea, I'm on my way to believing.