Spelling Out Life... with Penang

HAHAHA.

Now I'm Penang! Wuhoo!

So far, I've eaten 2 kinds of food:

1. Penang food:

Char Kueh Tiao, Kak Kao something, Fried Oyster, Laksa Penang, Popiah, Cendol, Hainanese Chicken, PRAWN NOODLES!

2. Hometown food:

Telinga babi kicap, Sup babi with buah terung masam (AWESOME), babi kicap, cili kicap, senamu (but I think my mum's version is way better!) kangkung belacan...

Damn nice!!!!!!

So yea.

:D

Spelling Out Life... with kind words

"People back home prophecied I'll not only come to Malaysia to finish my studies but for something else. Almost 4 months I've been here and I ask God what it is. After spending the whole day with you and your family, I know now that I come to Malaysia for you. I believe that very strongly of God's call for me to meet you. I don't know why but I know I come for you. You are very different compared to the other women I've ministered before. You are special in so many ways, Joy."

- Sharon Ann J.

Spelling Out Life... with Cat

Do I REALLY LOOK LIKE A CAT?

HAHAHAHAHAHAHHHAH

Hahahhaahahahahahaahha..

Funny.

Seriously, do I?

Spelling Out Life... with Thanksgiving #1

Hehehehe...

So far, I'm thanking God for the love and attention from my dearest friends and family. :)

I thank God for awesome experience with my PERKEB friends last 20th January 2011! From falling from the kayak in the icky green lake, *HAHAHAHA*, to using 2 SEATER BICYCLE!!!! *First time playing that!!!* to singing in a cafe *FIRST TIME DOING THAT TOO!* to watching Faster the movie... Really great day!

22nd Jan, having dinner with Dee and some of our friends in La Bodega is really nice! Aside from going to Frangipani in Changkat Bukit Bintang, we went to Neway Times Square too! Pretty much a whole load of money used there! UGH! Nevermind still.... we're there to bless Dee with our presence. I'm glad she had fun! :)

today, flying frisbee with a whole load of people today! :D the most memorable thing I had today was "Hey.. Thanks for motivating me. You're a good motivator." :DDDD I was just helping him with his throw and I never knew he'd say those kind words! :) He played really well after a few times! Fast learner! :)

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Aside from that, I was stressing out over little things. 1, lighting! 2. I'm planning to reshuffle the whole placing of the stage, PA and VIP seat stuff.. Dear Lord, PLEASE help! PLEASE LET THIS EVENT BRING GLORY TO YOUR NAME! I AM NOTHING WITHOUT YOU! :( HELP. HELP. HELP.

sigh.

Michelle Hee says I look like a cat.

Spelling Out Life... with God's Heart

Lord, Lord,

now I know what breaks You. I'm REALLY sorry.

now I feel what breaks You.

NOW I KNOW.

You've shown me personally that, pretty much CLEARLY.

NOW I KNOW.

and God, it hurts so much. It hurts me so much!

EXCRUCIATINGLY painful.

Lord, Lord,

I give up on my stupid slow self. Teach me more about You.

Teach me how to reach out and stop being such a coward.

Use me tremendously in the Council, in my class, in my daily activities.

I give up being nobody in my college.

I give up being quiet in You.

Teach me.

You've broken my heart into seeing things that are possibly wrong and

You've shown me how those break You, instead.

Lord, Lord

please use me.

please. I know I'm foolish in so many ways

but teach me. Teach me to love. Teach me to worship You like never before.

YAHWEH,

I really am broken.

Thank You Lord for making me feel what hurts You.

Thank You.

Spelling Out Life... with Disappointments

Shoving people expectations and then wrecking it in the end was what I did.

Showing signs of moving on and actually doing it is what I'm doing.

Seeking God in the midst of it all and practicing what I do is what I'm doing now.

I'm just a little disappointed in some people, that's all.

It has been my fault from the start, I admit it.

But I never knew you of all people never approach me after my mistakes!

Yes, I made stupid decisions, I never knew I'm now the stranger in your eyes.

Yes, a stranger.

It has been 16 days of New Year and you never once said "Hie Joy, how are you?" or even "Happy New Year" OR POKE ME on FB for goodness sake! Thank YOU for the moral support by not supporting me ever since.

Appreciation Note

Thank God for UKM seniors and some close MIRI-UKM-JOHOR-ICC friends who are kind enough to deal with my random character and they still have a wee hope in me that I'll change certain ways of how I carry myself, you know. They know certain steps I take are considered stupid now but they just advice me now and then just to kick the sense out of me, but hey, that's more than what I've prayed for! I learn every now and then, I see things from different perspective now and then; But the best part of all, I know I'm growing and I approach things differently now because of their supports and love. I thank God for every cautious minds on me! At least I know I still have a space in their heads. At least I know they won't forsake and leave me alone when I might or might not do stupid things again. At least I know they still care despite of it all. At least I'm no stranger.

:)

Thank you. I'll wait and count until the day you say hie. :)

Even if you do say hie after reading this post, I'll treat you the same as before. Don't worry. You're not a stranger to me coz the whole time, you are family.

Spelling Out Life... with Resolution

Hah. Realization hits when it's time to list down my desires for this year. Let's see if it does align with Daddy above. :)

in the year 2011, I'd like to:

1. do wall climbing on my 21st, with friends and families.

2. Go Singapore before 2012.

3. Win an award or something. I don't know what would that be.

4. Finish up the whole Bible.

5. Serve in other ministries in church.

6. Have really stable finance.

7. Have more open doors for my calling.

8. Experience at least 10 new things in this year.

9. Appreciate my faraway friends more. :)

10. NOT have a boyfriend.

that's about it, I think. :)

Have faith.

toodles lovely,

xoxo