Spelling Out Life... with Sower

You seem like putting me as an option. After talking to a friend, I realized all guys are the same; same in terms of not wanting to have anything to do with their ex-es. I don't know if it happens to you, that is. I wonder if the things I did or said make any difference?

You seem like taking my treatments for granted. I used to take everything else for granted, not you though, but it all came back to me when u treat me as how I treated the rest. I will always care for you..


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You seem happy. content. better word, surprisingly moved on. I never knew it's easy for you. I never knew you won't fight back. I never knew you just let go easily. Pretty much like another you. I was hoping that along this road, you'll drop by to say hie, but ah well, the sower has to reap her own fruit huh. I'll always miss you la.


For me, I'm content that I'm with my own shadow. But yea, it just suck to have you on my mind and I can't do nothing about. sigh. sleepy now. nite.

Spelling Out Life... with Mehhhhhhhhh

This post is ultimately lame. LOL.



My dream Guy
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cute and cuddly.



hahhahahahahaha...





told you its lame. I'm emotionless. I fear commitment so don't ever speak about me getting into a relationship anytime soon. I wonder why I even was in 2 before. Stupid child. Coz it's for smart people. Hahaahahahahah.. I fear falling in and out of love too. I miss him badly but I don't need any male supporters. right. I just want attention and it can be solved easily. right. The end. I just realized this thing won't cut out for me. uhuh. I'm just being emotional now. mehhhhhh...





Told you this post is lame.
XD

Spelling Out Life... with I Wont Even Start Lyric

What happened
after last summer
when we broke up
in September

I havent seen you
Feels like a long time
Sometimes it still hurts
But I always get by

I still got a piece of you under my skin
Its always there no matter where Ive been

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

I wish you luck
And I wish it true
Thats the best
I can do for you

Cuz youll probably find love
In someone new
I have to let go
Yeah its hard to do

So if I run into you with your arm by his side
Just know itll cut me like a knife

So if I ever see you on the street
Ill pretend that I didnt see
And turn my face
No use in small talk anyways

Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start
I wont even start

For some reason, this song really hits me. I'm still learning to let time passes by rather fast and learn to not remember although you're still in the head. ALL THE TIME. So yeah, perfect song for now.





"Because if I look into your eyes
Then Ill have to say goodbye
And thatll break my heart
So I wont even start"
- David Choi

:(

Spelling Out Life... with Heartbeats

your heartbeat. I miss dearly.

Spelling Out Life... with Valentine

"If you love somebody, let them go, for if they return, they were always yours. And if they don't, they never were." - Kahlil Gibran.

I've let it go, so many times but it comes back pretty much all the time when I need it most. :) Last night was another mind challenging session but it was awesome. I never knew this quote came into my mind! Of all the places and time! Heh. So let's just wait for the right timing. Even if it adds another 5 years to it, I just hope I'm ready for it. Dear Lord, you know my heart and do carry me through these coming years. :) Amen.