im at a lost phase.
im at a phase where I wanna do everything
I do not know where my commitments are.
I do know I just wanna serve as wherever I am at.
I'm just lost.
Dear Lord, what is it there for me to do now? what is it.
Sunday, August 29, 2010
Wednesday, August 25, 2010
Spelling out Life... with Patience
Okay. Swallow my pride.
Dear Lord, I ask of You to just continue to carry me through.
Debate tournament is tonight.
Give me the wisdom to grow in love and in patient.
Give me the heart to live it out for you.
I'm sorry for the previous post.
I know You chose me to be a jaksa for a reason.
I know I have to learn the hard way to grow out of something.
Let me draw close to you, even in the midst of anger.
I have to control my temper. I have to forgive.
I'm sorry Lord Jesus. Teach me to be more like you.
Day by day.
1 Cor 13:3 If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
HAIIIIIIIHHHHHHHHHHH...
Thank You Lord for opening my eyes to not just see beyond the problems. Teach me to love my felos and colleagues. I want to grow more like you, like love. Love is patient. Haih. This is the area I'm supposed to go through huh, God? I bet it is.
Well, bout Cedric. It has been a couple of days since I've not chatted with him? I think it was a couple of few days. LOL. I'm kinda starting to get awkward now, not hearing from him but knowing(in a good way) that he's busy with studies. I having nothing against him with studies, fyi. Dear Lord, remind me to be patient, not self-seeking, kind, not easily angered, not rude, not boastful, persevere, grateful, not keeping records of wrong... Teach me to be submissive to You, instead of wanting things to go my way. Haih. Thank You for showing me the light and grace every seconds of the day.. In Jesus' name, Amen.
:)
thank You for calming my anger too.
thank You for taking away those anger.
thank You for letting me know that I'm able to do this.
thank You for the encouragements from friends
thank You for the faith.
thank You for the grace.
THank You Lord Jesus.
Dear Lord, I ask of You to just continue to carry me through.
Debate tournament is tonight.
Give me the wisdom to grow in love and in patient.
Give me the heart to live it out for you.
I'm sorry for the previous post.
I know You chose me to be a jaksa for a reason.
I know I have to learn the hard way to grow out of something.
Let me draw close to you, even in the midst of anger.
I have to control my temper. I have to forgive.
I'm sorry Lord Jesus. Teach me to be more like you.
Day by day.
1 Cor 13:3 If I give all I possess to the poor and surrender my body to the flames, but have not love, I gain nothing.
HAIIIIIIIHHHHHHHHHHH...
Thank You Lord for opening my eyes to not just see beyond the problems. Teach me to love my felos and colleagues. I want to grow more like you, like love. Love is patient. Haih. This is the area I'm supposed to go through huh, God? I bet it is.
Well, bout Cedric. It has been a couple of days since I've not chatted with him? I think it was a couple of few days. LOL. I'm kinda starting to get awkward now, not hearing from him but knowing(in a good way) that he's busy with studies. I having nothing against him with studies, fyi. Dear Lord, remind me to be patient, not self-seeking, kind, not easily angered, not rude, not boastful, persevere, grateful, not keeping records of wrong... Teach me to be submissive to You, instead of wanting things to go my way. Haih. Thank You for showing me the light and grace every seconds of the day.. In Jesus' name, Amen.
:)
thank You for calming my anger too.
thank You for taking away those anger.
thank You for letting me know that I'm able to do this.
thank You for the encouragements from friends
thank You for the faith.
thank You for the grace.
THank You Lord Jesus.
Spelling out Life... with Roommate 2.
We had kittens in our room the other day.
I screamed coz I was shocked.
She laughed and laughed.
It was epic.
me "THERE'S A KITTEN IN OUR ROOM!!!!!!!! *SCREAM* THERE'S A BABY MIAO!"
She "HAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAH"
funny. heh.
I screamed coz I was shocked.
She laughed and laughed.
It was epic.
me "THERE'S A KITTEN IN OUR ROOM!!!!!!!! *SCREAM* THERE'S A BABY MIAO!"
She "HAHAHAAHAHAHHAAHAHAHHAHAHAH"
funny. heh.
Saturday, August 21, 2010
Spelling out Life... with Moving
i'm going to make another decision soon.
going to move.
is this another phase?
cause I do not know where I'm heading
going to move.
is this another phase?
cause I do not know where I'm heading
Friday, August 20, 2010
Spelling out Life... with Death
lately, I've been thinking bout death.
How I'd die in a car crash.
and how struggling it is to not be drown by my old blood.
How I'm fighting for air yet the blood keeps on flowing in, like water.
I don't recall bout the pain
But I recall bout the legacy I will leave.
But do I actually have a legacy to leave here on earth?
As the memories keep on flashing in my mind
I see the people I've served in UKM, UiTM, Miri, SMK Chung Hua Miri etc.
I see the faces of these people and I see their smiles.
I see the little things I did.
I see only the little things, but did they bring any impact to those who smiled back at me?
Did they?
I don't know why has it been almost a month I've been thinking bout death?
Seriously. Not funny. hahahaahahahahahaha.. I think Liza is bored of me asking her "If I die kan Liza, will you be sad and cry?" HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. *lame, i know* u know what her replies would be "ih, I'm not gonna answer that. stupid question. of coz la sad, calie you. gai you." hahahahahahahaahahahahahahah
sigh. tired now. real tired.
How I'd die in a car crash.
and how struggling it is to not be drown by my old blood.
How I'm fighting for air yet the blood keeps on flowing in, like water.
I don't recall bout the pain
But I recall bout the legacy I will leave.
But do I actually have a legacy to leave here on earth?
As the memories keep on flashing in my mind
I see the people I've served in UKM, UiTM, Miri, SMK Chung Hua Miri etc.
I see the faces of these people and I see their smiles.
I see the little things I did.
I see only the little things, but did they bring any impact to those who smiled back at me?
Did they?
I don't know why has it been almost a month I've been thinking bout death?
Seriously. Not funny. hahahaahahahahahaha.. I think Liza is bored of me asking her "If I die kan Liza, will you be sad and cry?" HAHAHAHHAAHAHAHAAHAHHAHAAHAHAHAHAHAHA.. *lame, i know* u know what her replies would be "ih, I'm not gonna answer that. stupid question. of coz la sad, calie you. gai you." hahahahahahahaahahahahahahah
sigh. tired now. real tired.
Spelling out Life... with Roommate
I find this couple of weeks had been better. :)
She and I ate dinner a couple of times,
we talked and joked lately.
THANK YOU LORD. :)
Continue to draw us together.
Amen.
She and I ate dinner a couple of times,
we talked and joked lately.
THANK YOU LORD. :)
Continue to draw us together.
Amen.
Thursday, August 12, 2010
Spelling out Life... with Sickness
I'm down with a flu n cough now.
Ate medicine and woke up 3 hours later.
not a fun thing to do.
i nearly fainted when i went to wash my face. LOL.
I was quiet in PERKEB too.
REALLY QUIET.
I can't seem to bother to open my mouth and speak.
I'm just too consumed with the medicine.
I'm tired.
lol.
nite.
xoxo,
Ate medicine and woke up 3 hours later.
not a fun thing to do.
i nearly fainted when i went to wash my face. LOL.
I was quiet in PERKEB too.
REALLY QUIET.
I can't seem to bother to open my mouth and speak.
I'm just too consumed with the medicine.
I'm tired.
lol.
nite.
xoxo,
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